(Trigger worning when i do ** this that means its starting when i do this §§ it has ended if you are easly triggerd or will get easly triggerd please sjip that part i do not want you to do that to yourself so please skip if needed thatnk you)
After i knocked on the door guess who opened it.
My mom opend the door for me and i told her how i left my keys
Then she said "your brother is in the kitchen u should go see him.""no thanks im just going to go to my room." i said. As i was walking up the stairs, i started to get more and more mad and depressed about my brother bieng her so when i went to my room i locked the door and went to my bathroom and locked that door to just be safe.** i dug threw my drawers to find my hidden razors underneath my toiletries, (girly iteams) i got the razors and got a towel and sat by my sink contemplating wether i should or not. "I really shouldnt" i said under my breath but as i said that i put the razor to my skin next to an old scar and pushed the razor down not so hard so its not TO deep but deep enough to cut. As i sliced the razor over and over watching the blood rush out of my arm. I did that 9 times on each arm and 4 times on my left thigh. After i washed it off i bandaged my arms and leg.§§ I went closet and grabbed a pull over (a jacket/hoodie) and some leggings (pretend you cant see the bandage threw the leggings)
And i went to my bed and went on twitter till i fell asleep.
*THE NEXT MORNING
When i woke up i rememberd zayn was here and i didnt want to do down, but i was hungry and i cant hide from him forever. So i did my morning routine and i changed into some light blues skinnies and a cream nit sweater. (Cause its not hot in bradford i think haha)
I walked down stairs to see my brother asleep on the couch and a note on the counter that says
"Went on my bissnes trip sorry i didnt say goodbye you were asleep and i dint want to wake you there is money to last you while im gone on the counter -love mom" this bi- "jessica?"
Haha another cliff hanger im sorry but i will update right after this so yeaaa.
