Complicated

My name is Abby, and my life is by far, very complicated. Well, lets start when I was little. When I was in first grade I used to have an accent, but I got bullied for it a lot. One day, the bullying got really bad. Some people called me, "Stupid." Or, "Retarded." So I taught myself to get more of clear speaking voice. The next day I went to school, they bullied me for trying to fit in. I was so confused, I didn't what to do. So, I shut my feelings off and was better off alone. I wouldn't talk to anyone, I wouldn't play with anyone, I wouldn't even sit by anyone. Until I met the nicest person you could ever meet, Conley. She just came up to me and said hi.(She was in my daycare.) Then we just started hanging out after school, being the outsiders. Until we met two kids In 2nd grade; Cody and Ethan. Things got worse then last year, not for the same reason though. I was bullied for being me, I was beaten; Slapped, kicked, punched, spit on, pushed and broken. I used to have a crush on a kid named Nathan. He would go back and forth with me and my friend, Conley. I still liked him, even thought him and his friends; Cody and Ethan, would pants me an push me off of high places. I got all of these beatings everyday. Life for me was hard, with me nor focusing on school, but more on the bullies.

In 3rd grade I met new friends, because I moved to a different part of town. This is where I met my first gang. They saw I was run the collage track, they thought I was fast. I was walking by when I heard,"Hey. Kid!!!" I turned around and there I saw 1 girl and 5 guys, they looked to be about 14-16. I slowly started to walk faster, they circled me. I was scared to death and thankfully I had my pocket knife, I pulled it on them. They all just laughed, the leader said,"Ha! I like your spunk kid! We could use you. Wanna join?" I sat and thought for a little bit. I ended up saying yes. I got to meet everyone, the girl was Carly, the boys' names were: Chase, Eli, Nathan, Ricky, and Marcell. We were hanging at a skate park one day when Chase came up to me and said, "Hey! Follow me!" So I did. He took me kinda far out and he pushes me against a tree and kissed me. I was confused and asked, "Um, what are you doing?" he said, "I love you, will you go out with me?" I didn't know what to say so I juat said sure. We were walking back and a girl walked up to me and slapped me. "Why did uou slap me!?!?" I said. "YOU MADE OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND!! The chick said. Chase said, "Kelly!! We are over! We broke up a week ago!" Rage ran over her face, then she threw a punch at me. I pulled out my knife and said, "Better watch it Kelly, don't want to cut that pretty face!" She looked frightned then she just walked away. Everyone looked at me and Chase, Eli said, "So, you guys are a "Thing" now? Congrats!" I blushed. Eli was like a big brother and I can trust him for everything! It was about a month later me and the gang were walking when we stumbled onto opposite territory. We all put our hoods up, suddenly a group started chasing us. We all pulled out our knifes, Chase said, "GO ABBY! I don't want you to get hurt." I gave him a confidient face and we ran towards them. One of them stabbed my side, I started to fall to the ground. Chase ran over to me while someone tried to jump on his back, I used all my energy and punching the guy in the face. Chase picked me up and carried me away. "Oh my god! Are you ok?? Should I take you to the hospital?" He said. I said with a fragile tone, "No, I will be fine just need some rest." He sat me up on the chair and walked behind me, he started kissing my neck then up my face to my lips. I couldn't feel the pain because of his magical kiss. I passes out because of a major blood loss, I woke up being next to Chase in my bed. I asked him if he did anything dirty to me while I was out.... He said everything but sex. I gave him a suprized look. We met up with the rest of the gang, we found out Carly died. So I had to take her place at top rank. I had no idea what I was up against, I didn't think I could do it. One day, we got into a big fight, I was being kicked on the ground. It was only me and Chase against one guy. I stabbed the guy in the foot, me and Chase heard sirens so we bolted in to a near by bush. The cop pulled over to ask the guy if he was ok, he said,"I HAVE A FORK IN MY FOOT, DO I LOOK ALRIGHT!?" We giggled a bit then left. about two years later I got out of the gang and never saw them again. I then moved to La Crescent, MN. I met some new people, the first person I met was Michaela. Which lead me to Tayler, then Sami. I was walkin with Sami and I saw a boy in the hall. I asked Sami who he was she told me his name was, "Austin." From that day I really liked him. I knew I would do what ever it took to be close with him. It was a couple years later, in 7th grade. We were in a class together, a extra english class. He would sit in front of me and stick his feet out. I would always put my feet on top of his. Eventually, he got used to it and this happened until the next year he was almost completely different! He looked and acted really different. I still tried to be his friend, I started getting more and more shy because how popular he got. I really didn't expect the person that once played footsie with me, turned into someone that is a manwhore.

Later in the year I met the nicest, sweetest, and funniest boy I have ever met!! His name was Ryan. I ended up asking out his older brother Garrett. It really hurt him, I wasn't aware at the time he liked me. I really loved him, just not in the same way. I broke up with his brother and I started going out with Ryan, this lasted until the next day, I got jealous of Garrett.. I broke up with Ryan because of it. We were both bawling about it, and both threatening to kill ourselves. It was a very tramatizing day. I then got back together with Garett and broke up with him a day before our six month anniversary. Which I was completely un -aware of. Then I dated Ryan for about a month and since that day I have loved Ryan with all of my heart, up to this day. I always thought he hated me, but thank god we are still friends. Otherwise, I might not be alive.

-THE END