Troyler Oneshots

Memories (sad)

His name is Tyler Oakley. But I like to call him Tilly. Ty for short. And he was my best friend. Every second we spent together, not a dull moment ever came. It was almost like he was my medicine that the doctor told me to take for my depression. I don't have depression, but if I did he would cure it with just a glance in my direction. After he spoke that one word to me, nothing in the world could separate us.

A simple re-blog, changed my life. He gave me confidence I didn't even know I could uphold. He gave me even more people to help pull me from my shell of insecurity.. And gave me the opportunity to be who I am, without caring what people think.

Before I was a very shy, quiet boy with dreams bigger than I was. Secrets that only a few knew. And a big crush on a man who said things I never could. I never smiled the way I should, and I stayed up late wishing to find love. When all I really needed was a person who understood. And that was the short, lavender haired man who carried a bright smile and a head turning laugh.

I could give you a million reasons how we connected, but I don't think I have enough time. I never had enough time and thats probably why the friendship I cherished so much... is gone.

The moment we let the fans get to our heads, was the moment things weren't the same. I wish I could erase the moment of the kiss, forget the taste of his lips and how good they felt on mine. Maybe that's why things didn't work out, because even though our lips were made for each other, the timing was wrong.

This isn't a story about two people who are inseparable and blindly in love though. This is a story about how life happens and people change.

I changed. The quiff turned into a curly fringe. My laugh turned into a smile. Eyes were no longer blindly Hazel. Trxye into Blue Neighborhood. And a friend turned into something more. But the friend didn't go by the name of Tyler.

Tilly didn't so much as change, more of just... Grow. He was still the promo God who took his thrown to the Ellen show. Who hosted many big events and wrote a book halfway through 2015. Only partly through the year and I can't imagine what else he has stored for us. Instead of witnessing in person, or hearing about it through Skype though... I get to find out just like all his fans. So I'm back at the beginning... Watching his progress through my computer screen.

The person who changed was me.I said goodbye to the man who stopped coloring his hair. The man who saves lives. And the man who was once my best friend.

I miss it. I miss the cackle that no matter what mood I was in, a smile would appear on my face. I missed that look he would give me when he was just proud. I miss how he'd be the first person I look for acceptance from. I miss how we were each other's rocks, the person we talk to in a crowded audience.

Seems like just yesterday we were trying our hardest not to wear each other's clothes. Or flirt too much that the fans get overwhelmed. I got overwhelmed by the amount of people who wanted us together. Even my parents begged for that relationship. Now that we stop talking, and my parents stopped posting about Tyler and I online, the fans have grown quiet, almost too quiet.

I wonder if we are still shipped. Obviously not like we used to be but still... like a bit. Is it selfish of me to wish that, even though I have someone else?

Knowing that this relationship changed others, it hurts like a bitch. My friends and I aren't close like we used to be. I don't post videos as much as I should, and I worry about my fans sadness. Sure, I'm busy making albums but I also miss the way Ty used to nag me about posting. Although annoying sometimes, he meant well. And I thank him for that.

I thank him for a lot of things. Encouraging me to post my coming out video in 2013. Reminding me about body confidence. Listening to me explain my problems. He was there. And now.. I'm not.

It's funny huh? How one simple hello or more of a reblog button, could later be the worst heart shattering goodbye.
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A/n: Hi and Hello.

This was a bit of a sad one... I'm sorry I was just feeling a bit emotional when I wrote it.

P.s Who is excited about Auguest bc I know I am. Imagine Troyler Collab.. Plz.

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