Hidden Love

~Chapter 2~

Here's our beautiful little Rikki-Lynn!
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Rikki-Lynn

I slowly walked down the path that leads to my house, listening to my dad yell through the phone.

"When are you coming back home?! You're supposed to be here!! I'm left alone with your stupid-ass brother and sister. Do you have no respect for me?!

"You're the one who needs to be here to look after them, not me!" He finally finished and hung up the phone.

I stopped walking and looked up at the sky. "Why me? Did I do something wrong?" I asked no one quietly.

"Uh, yes?" I heard a male voice say from behind me. I jumped and turned around quickly.

"S-Sorry, I was just..talking to myself."

He laughed and stepped closer to me, "it's Okai. Don't we all talk to ourselves?"

I nodded a little, "yeah. Uh, I have to go. Sorry again. Bye."

I quickly turned around and took off running, hoping to lose that guy behind me. Who answers someone when they're talking to them self in self pity? God.

I turned corners here and there, finally making it to my 'home.'

XX

After supper, I stayed at the table, pulling out my homework and listening to my baby sister cry from another room.

"Rikki-Lynn! Don't be fucking lazy, go and get her!" I heard my farther yell. I sighed and slowly got up, making my way to my sister's room.

Why do I have to live like this?

All I want, is to be happy, not to yelled at.

I carefully picked up my crying baby sister and bounced her on my hip gently. "It's Okai," I cooed.

I slowly walked around the room, hoping to calm her down a bit. I sighed when it didn't work and slowly walked down stairs with her.

"I'm taking Clara for a walk," I told my farther quietly, putting on Clara's jacket.

"Why? She doesn't need to go for a walk!" He grumbled at me, walking over to me.

"It'll calm her down.." I said quietly, doing up the jacket.

"I don't care. You still have homework and housework that needs to be done! I don't got time for that shit," he growled, raising his hand at me.

"Do you want this baby calm, or crying for the rest of the night?" I asked, looking up at him.

He didn't answer, walking away quietly. I sighed and put Clara in the baby stroller, slowly pushing it out the door.

I walked around the block with Clara about 3 times before she stopped crying. I slowly pushed the stroller back to the house.

A group of boys came out of nowhere, walking towards us. I held onto the stroller tightly, my knuckles turning white.

"Aweh, look at the baby!" One said out of sarcasm, laughing to himself.

"But, look at the slut who had it. How many baby-daddies do you have? My last girl had 6," another one laughed.

"I have no baby-daddies. This is my sister," I mumbled quietly, fear running threw me.

"Yeah yeah, sure," another one laugh. "How do we know you're not lying?"

"Rikki-Lynn, stop talking to your friends and gets your ass in here!" I heard my farther yell.

"Sorry, my farther awaits me," I smiled. "I must go now."

I sighed and pushed my stroller up the sidewalk and up the ramp. The only reason we have a ramp, is because my farther is paralyzed from the waist down.

And for the baby, too.

"Is that your angry baby-daddy?" I heard one of the males laugh.

I shook my head and walking into the house faster, trying to ignore the names they yell at me.

I picked up Clara from the stroller, carding her to her room. I did my best to not wake her up, putting her down in her crib.

I covered her with her blanket, then made my way down to the basement, starting to the laundry.

XX

After finishing my homework, I slowly made my way to the bathroom.

I quietly shut the door and locked it, grabbing my blade from my pocket. I slowly sat down, tears already flowing down my cheek.

Slut. Whore. Pathetic. Everyone hates you. Kill yourself. Drink bleach. No one needs you.

For every insult playing through my head, I made a cut. Over and over again, until my arms we're soaked in blood, and numb from the pain.

I sobbed and looked down at the blood, my tears mixing with it and running down my arm.

"So pathetic," I whispered to myself, before passing out.

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