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"You know what? Bye, goodnight!” Dad says. Oh. My. Fucking. God. I stand up and walk towards the door, who leads to the stairs.

“Just, what am I doing wrong?” I ask  him

“Just the way you’re standing there like that.”

“What? So I also just can’t standing normal anymore?!” I say furious. I open the door and slam the door behind me. I walk to the stairs. Fuck you! I hate you! Fuck, fuck, fuck you! I yell in my mind while sticking my middle finger out to him trough the stairs. Though he can’t see it. Damnit! Hate my life! I yell at dad and at myself. Tears are dripping from my eyes. I scream noiseless. You only can hear a peep sound of my voice. After I walked at the second stairs, I come in my room and scream noiseless again. More tears are strolling down my face. I go sit on my bed.

Great. Phone took in at 9.15 pm sharp every evening, and my light must be off at 9.45 . What am I?! A kid? I am crying real hard now. Fuck my life so bad! I grab my pajamas and want to throw them at the door. Wait, calm down, that has no use. I cry more. I barely pull my pajama pants apart. Damn!

I grab my laptop. Shit, battery died. I grab my adapter and put it in the switch-plug. I put the other side in my laptop. Resuming, it says. Good. It seems like this thing is getting slower by the week. Annoying. Yay it started. I’m opening Google Chrome, and go to my blog site and start to write.

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The names of the people are changed, so that nobody has to feel addressed.

Hey awesome people! 

I don’t know how your day was so far, but mine sucked. Again. Okay okay, I was already a bit cranky, because I was staying at school for charity! Haha, so I decided to not to sleep. In the middle of the night we got in sort of a Bitchfight but without the scratching and slamming. I was pretty fine, though I was so hyper this night! But I was calm and not tired. And it all worked out fine, until first and second period. I was tired as fuck. Then third and fourth we’re the ones who awaken me a bit.

And then…. It was time for the fifth. Science. I have to work together with this girl Dani. and she and me are almost always fighting. Today she was at my top. We had to make an experiment. Together. She just sat there on one of the two stools which stand under the table. I picked ev-er-y-thing. I only forgot the thermometer. But that’s further on. I walked by her, I said “Dani can you also pick something? I did everything!” And that little bitch was like: “No, I can’t because I’m handicapped” Omg. I just could slap all her teeth outta her mouth. I was getting mad, you don’t wanna know. Then along, half of the experiment failed, but we kept going on. Well, sixth and seventh period wasn’t much of excitement, don’t want you guys to annoy you :p

So I came home, hyper as I always am. My dad was busy in the garden with my neighbor and my mom had some chic and decently man to talk with (I don’t know and don’t care about what. Something about our car I guess). I went upstairs, went on my laptop, on twitter, showered and blah blah, after the shower I took, I went downstairs, and for a long time nothing happened.  Then we had to eat and I was really hungry. I wanted to tell about the night and the running we did for the charity, but my brother was in front of me, like always. I waited, and finally I could tell (we were already on the dessert -.- ) But my dad said the story was too long and we had to read the Bible, not that I don’t like that, but you know, I get the chance to say something, am I getting cut off to read in the Bible! L So I was like “I was almost done, you know.” But they ignored me. Then after the reading, I got some arguing with my brother about a blue card we have to give to the reception from our school when we were absent. I was right, ‘cause it’s my school. I know I was right. So my dad didn’t liked my attitude.  My mouth was still full of dessert, so I prayed in my head. He was like, why? I said, “Am I once trying to come decently over, while praying, so not with my mouth full, he cut me off with “You know what? Bye, goodnight!” And then he said something about my way of standing (I was with my hands in my sides), he said it was dumb. So I walked away half crying and being mad.

So now I’m here, typing all this shit of today. Fuck this day. Fuck all of my school days. The one good thing about today, is that in this staying awake night at school for charity, I got a really good conversation with one of my friends, Dana.. We saw that we have so much in common. We were both “BFF” (I just did the finger-thing, you know :p ) with Raquelle, until she led us fall down for Jasmyn. We talked about this for like half an hour or even more. We also had it about me being bullied at elementary school. And that my bully is on the same school as me now, but that he is like a grain of sand in the ocean now. I can say that I am way more popular than he is (:  #me happy.

Well lovely folks, this was it for today! Hope to see you soon! And you know, if you got any trouble, tell me, I’ll respond it. I’ve been trough much things. Painful and lovely ones. ♥

xxxx Me.♥

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I look at my message. Long story you wrote girl! It feels good to pour your heart out to people you don’t know that well. Like I did to Daphne. That felt great. Such a relief that we had the same. Rachel let me down for Daphne, but then led Daphne down for Jade and me, and let me down again for Jade. Now it's only Jade & Rachel, Rachel & Jade.

Just stfu

Today Raquelle was just being a bitch again with Kaylee. Kaylee had to cry because of a retweet that some guy Oliver made, my classmate Jack retweeted it, and Kira retweeted Jack’s. And Kaylee saw Kira’s retweet and so Kaylee had to cry about that because it was something like she was ashamed of kissing with Oliver. I didn’t even know she was already hazed. I mean, she’s not one of the prettiest girls ever.. :d So back to the cry-baby. Everybody around her was feeling sorry for her and blah blah shit.

So Elisa, Rachel and Jade walked towards us, hearing us out why Kira retweeted that picture. Kira said she did it because it was funny. I did thought so too haha. Kira went on “Yes, but then Elisa could come alone, and you two just could stay away. Elisa could’ve done it alone. Or Kaylee could just come herself.” And more blah blah blah. Then one hour past and Daphne and I decided to ask if they would join playing a card game. Daphne was like, oh or isn’t this the right time, and then Elisa reacted pretty stoked “Yeah, couldn’t you guess?” Daphne was like oh okay, and then that bitch Alana spoke, “Yes Daphne, then you don’t immediately have to do so hypocritical.” Daphne was really surprised about this and she asked why, but Kaylee was like, No, no Alana stop it. UGH

Yes, because she rules everything when she just has to cry. And to make it from worse to better, she was acting all miss See me See me act pathetic. Well if anything was pathetic, it was that act. Ugh!

And now, because I haven't slept last night, I have to go in bed at 9.30.

9.30!!!!!!!!!!!! le omg.  

It's Friday Fucking Night. C'mooon :(((

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Hey ! I just wanted to say what hazing meant if you didn't quite understand. It means you're kissed for the very first time by a boy or a girl. c: