Oh my gosh Mitch is coming today day I gotta make myself not look like I'm a depressed person who watches YouTube all day. I looked at my closet. Black. All I saw was black. I started crying. What am I going to do. I can't live like this. I-I just can't. I can't think about this now, I have to get ready. Finally I found a navy shirt with black shorts that didn't shout DEPRESSION!! I brushed my hair and did my makeup. I made us some, well bought some cookies from the store. Now the hardest part. ACTING like I'm not depressed. Oh god. Knock knock. He's here. I opened the door and there he was. He was so hot and he smelled nice and he was... "Hello? Am I at the right place?" "Oh yes, sorry, I'm Alex." "Well hello Alex." "Come on in." "Nice place." "Thanks, my dads a lawyer so he bought me this as a surprise." I motion to the cookies, "Help yourself." "Thanks." He grabbed a cookie, and sat on the couch. "So, you're going to the collage?" "Ya." "Cool." Awkward silence. "I am to. Going to the same one you are." "Cool." "I'd like to be friends. And now more about you." "OK" " You don't talk much." " I like to hold most of my thoughts inside." "I am kind of getting the feeling that you're depressed." DAMNIT! "What makes you think that?" "You don't talk much, and when you do talk it sounds kind of sad." "Fine I am." "Why, I never understood depression." "Well, it started the beginning of last year. I kind of grew into a darker style, and started losing friends. Then one day at school I was sick of stupid rules and kind of talked back to the principal twice, and ran away to my best, and only friend. Then I lost her, ran away until I was found. I went to online school and then my depression just grew from there. I constantly feel like crying or dieing." Why did I just say that. I hate myself. "I'm sor-" He interrupted by crashing his lips against mine. And I kissed him back. I felt happier than I ever felt in my life. I was warm inside. I was happy.
I feel happy inside and sad inside. Happy because I got a chapter out, and I LOVE this chapter. Sad because, FOREVER ALONE!!
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