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Chapter 1

Chapter 1

"Harry, im scared!" i whined as me and my 7 year old best friend made our way to the scary roller coaster.

i've been scared of roller coasters since i first saw them which was when i was 5. i threw up and cried after the ride and promised never to ride that scary machine ever again! Until now..

"dont worry Emily, just hold my hand and everything will be fine" Harry reassured me as i held his tiny hand into my own.

Our turned finally came and the man buckled us up. I looked back only to find mine and Harry's mum sitting behind us. My mum gave me a reassuring smile.

i turned back to Harry and clasped our hands together, entwining our small fingers. Harry smiled at me and said, " trust me, its gonna be fun."

I took in a deep breath and said, "okay... im trusting you" The roller coaster slowly started to move. I was shaking and my palms were sweaty. But i tried my best to ignore the fact that roller coaster would go really fast any moment and thought of good things.

Harry did say this would be fun.

The rollercoaster went gliding down. i let out a loud shriek still holding onto harrys hand like my life depended on it. i looked over at harry only to find him screaming his little lungs out and a huge smile plastered on his face. He looked over at me, his smile spreading even further.

After a few minutes, it was over. It was actually really fun, just like harry told me. the rush of it was so thrilling i felt like going again.

"i told you it was gonna be fun!" Harry giggled while enveloping me into a loving bear hug.

"it really was. Thanks for holding my hand" i said still hugging him.

"nah, its okay. i'll always be here to protect you"

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I woke up with a massive headache. i was sweating all over even though it was mid of winter. i quickly pulled the huge amount of blankets off of me and sat up straight.

another nightmare.

well, they're not really nightmares. They're bad memories coming back as dreams. Memories i want to forget. but i cant.

He's the last person i want to think about. I bet he doesn't even remember me, totally forgotten that i even exist. And here i am dreaming about him.

Pathetic.

I looked at the clock on my bedside table. "6:30AM" it said. Since i was up so early and couldn't sleep i decided to go downstairs. Im pretty sure Nan would be up right now.

So this is the part where i tell you about myself.

Hi, my name is Emily Moore. Im 18. My mum passed away in a car crash and after her death, my dad became an alcoholic. He used to beat me and hurt me in any way possible. He later got married to this skank who I had to call my "mother". I had no one at that time. Except for this idiot asshole who was my best friend. He told me he'd be there for me. He said he'd help me out of this mess. And since I'm an idiot, I believed him, fell in love with him and thought he actually cared. Of course, he didn't.

My dad passed away because of the excessive amount of alcohol he would take in every day. To be honest, I'd never been happier. My step mom left me and I found my self in a foster house. that's when I knew how loneliness felt. That's when I started to miss him. I wanted him to hug me again and to tell me I looked ugly in my clothes. But then apologize and tell me I was beautiful. But he didn't care. He never did. Soon, at the age of 16, this old jolly lady found me and adopted me. she's the nicest lady I have ever met. And she makes amazing cookies.

I quickly brushed my teeth and put my hair up in a bun and headed downstairs. I saw Nan chilling in the lounge drinking tea and reading the news. She probably heard me coming as she turned her head and gave me a warm smile.

"Morning child" she said going back too reading her newspaper.

"morning Nan! slept well?" i said, plopping down beside her and grabbing a newspaper for myself.

"Like a baby" she chuckled.

You might be wondering how big of a loser i am. i mean, im 18 and i should be hooking up with boys and partying. but since i moved in with Nan, this is what mostly happens in the morning. Me and Nan sit in silence and read the daily news. Hard to believe but its actually really nice.

"why are you guys up so early?" i heard a squeaky voice come from the stairs. It was Josh. Did i forget to mention him? You can say he's my step-brother. We're really close. Nan had adopted him because it got really lonely when i wasn't around. He's only three and he really is like a brother to me. Im really protective over him.

Tomorrows New Years Eve. And i am so excited about it. Me and my best friend aimee have planned so much for it. We're gonna go watch the fireworks and then go to the mall after that. I was thinking of bringing Josh along since he doesn't go out that much. I know he'll be really fascinated by the 'stars popping in the sky' as he calls the fireworks.

i made myself, Nan and josh some breakfast before me and josh went out for our daily walk in the park. he would play around and take a few swings.

this morning Josh made a new friend. Her name was lucy and she was the cutest 5 year old i have ever met. she had blond hair and striking green eyes. they both were playing on the swings like they had known each other forever. I couldn't help but smile as they giggled and took turns on the swing.

My smile soon faded when all the memories came rushing back. Lately, everything reminds me of him, and its really bugging me.

*FLASHBACK*

"Faster!" i giggled as harry pushed the swing allowing me to go higher in the sky. Harry used all his strength and pushed with more force.

i closed my eyes and let the wind blow in my face. it felt amazing.

i got too caught in the moment and as harry pushed one more time i lost my balance and my hands slipped off the ropes and i fell with a thug on the ground.

i was brave enough not to cry, i had gotten used to falling off plenty of times. My knee was bleeding and the pain was excruciating. Harry was quickly by my side for my aid.

"Emily, are you okay?!" harry said, with a worried expression on his face.

i winced as he gently touched the injury.

he quickly carried me all the way back to his house and gently set me down on the sofa. He got the first aid kit and quickly covered up the injury. Harry was like a big brother to me. We did absolutely everything together.

*FLASHBACK ENDED*

"Em, why are you crying?" i looked down to find josh pulling at my jeans and lucy standing next to him with a confused face.

"oh, nothing i just-" i didn't know what to say. He didn't even know about harry, Neither did nan. i didn't tell anyone. i wanted to forget.

i just waved my hand at him and faked a smile. After that i bought josh some ice cream and went back home, getting everything ready for tomorrow.