"No! What I'm asking you is who the fuck is she and why was she at your house when I left!" Y/N screamed down the walls of my house. I'd never seen her so angry before, I'm sure that vein in her neck was boutta pop if I said the wrong thing. "Babe, it's n.." "No don't youdare babe me right now" she warned me with a threatening finger pointed at my face. "I'm not in the fucking mood for your shit. Don't you wanna tell me who the hell she is or do I have to walk out of here and find out for myself?" "No, no baby.." I grabbed her by the shoulders to calm her down.
"It's nothing.. okay? She's.. my cousin. I have her number, you can ask her or Angela and whoever in my family about her. Why you worrying over that?" I asked. I noticed she was blinking tears away. "Because that's not the first girl to come between us and ruin shit and make us break up.. you know what these hoes are like Diggy! They don't care and neither do you! But I'm standing here like an idiot and you're letting them get all over you like that.." she got really upset and I just wanted to hush her... "Baby, it doesn't happen. Okay? I only have eyes for you. I wouldn't do that to you" I comforted her and hugged her close to my chest.
She left after half an hour of comforting and reassurance. I really didn't want her to find out the truth. I wanted her to believe it was nothing. I didn't want her to find out for herself.
A few days had passed and internet gossip was getting the better of the situation. Y/N didn't pay attention to tabloids at all... but I did. And I knew if her or any of her friends got a hint of this and what they saw, she'd go mental. I needed to tell her. It seemed like the whole world but her knew about this. I invited her to my house, told her it was important and we sat beside each other on the dining table. I didn't want to do this to her..
"Babe, first things first.. I'm so sorry. For everything I've done to you, how I've hurt you and.. my past. I'm sorry and I know that can never be forgiven but you always look past it for me" "Diggy, what the fuck?" she responded, confused that I was holding her hands over the table and struggling to make eye contact with her. Baby, that girl I told you about? ...She's the mother of my son".
I finally looked up at her and she released her hands from mine, pulling her chair out to sit further away from me. "Please, d.." I tried to beg but she interrupted me, refusing to look me in the eyes. "No. No, you told me not to worry about her.. that it was fucking nothing and then you drop this?" she sharply looked up at me. "How could you?!" "Baby, it was one time, I wa.." "When the fuck did this happen?!!" she screamed. I paused. "Last year.. I got really drunk... it meant nothing!" "Oh, so that makes it 100x fucking better doesn't it? You're disgusting and I fucking hate you." She snarled, got up and left the room.
"Please don't walk out on me.." "Why not!" she snapped. "You cheated.. you, you.. have a baby with someone else.. a baby boy... after all I've put up with for you and forgotten for you, and had to look past for you, you go and you do this? Is..." She stopped to laugh as she stuttered on her words in complete disbelief, holding her hand on her head to try and figure it all out. "Is this how you fucking repay me? After all I've done is be so good to you, so loyal and stay by your side through the dumbest shit. And you have me thinking you've changed and you're a better person. I look like a fucking Karreuche having to put up with your shit and always, always forgiving you, are you stupid? I hate you!" she screamed so angrily at me.
I rushed over to her, but she fought back, slapping me, hitting me, pushing me to get off her, but I held her and pulled her with me to the floor to sit down with me as she cried into my chest. "You have a child.. you have a child.." She tried to come to terms with is as I ran my fingers through her hair, stroking it gently. "A baby with someone else!" she cried aloud. "How could you do that to me.. why us?" she sobbed. "I don't know what to tell you.. baby, I didn't mean for this to ha.." "No.. no, you know what? I can't.." she stood up and wiped her eyes, grabbed her purse from the couch and headed straight for the door.
"I have to go.. I can't do this anymore, not us, not anymore Diggy, I'm sorry.." "Baby, Y/N,please! I need you in this, I can't do this alone!" I got up and ran after her. I needed her. "You're better off alone! You know why, all you do is hurt people that love you and you don't know any better. And you lie and cheat and deceive to get what you want and keep everyone around you, but not me. Not anymore, I can't do this. I can't let you do this to me and I have to pretend like this whole lie and what you did doesn't hurt me". She shook her head, her eyes full of tears. She pulled off the diamond necklace I bought her as an anniversary gift, threw it to the ground and slammed the door...
Meanwhile I broke down in tears on the floor when I realised, holding the necklace in my hand with our initials inscribed on the back .. after all these years of lying, cheating, breaking up and making up, fights, sex, love and tears.. I'd lost her for good. And I knew after all this that she'd had enough and this was the last straw. My baby wasn't coming back.
