I'm not like other girls my age, I'm still a virgin. Yeah I don't throw myself at everything with a penis which is probably why I have no school cred, I'm basically in the background not that I don't mind it's just I don't have much friends. Which is probably why I was walking into school with a thick book in front of me, to busy to look we're I'm going. First period hadn't even start yet the only thing I hear is who banged who, please people STDs much.
"Hey nerd." A voice called out as someone stole my book making me growl and glare at the red head in front of me, Colin. "I'm not a nerd." I whine trying to grab my book back only for him to hold me back like I was nothing, now thats not fear he's a head taller then me as well as Damian and there both on the football team.
"You wear big thick glasses, you have your hair in a scrunchy, you have your nose in a book and your a straight A student." He listed making me narrow my eyes and create a firm line with my lips. "One I need these glasses to see, two Amber Ervinas is has a scrunchy in her hair, three I have to do a report on that book period Four and I have three chapters left, four so is Damian and it's not our fault your a C- student. No we give me back my book."
I lunge for the book only to be court by strong arms and have my book snatched out of Colin's hand, Colin only gave a cocky grin. "Hey Dames." Colin's cocky grin only widen as my book come into my hands. "Colin how many times does Bella have to tell you she isn't a nerd." Damian playfully scolded his other best friend.
"Why are you so protective of her, it's not like your dating." Colin teased making Damian tense and me hit him with my book, he simly glared at me. "Ow!" I gave him a satisfied smirk before basically skipping down the hall, it wasn't long before they court up with me I'm not that fast so definitely not speedster fast.
"If I didn't know you any better I'd think your keeping something from us." I stiffen at that looking over at the smirking Colin and confuse Damian, I had been keeping the secret of my family for so long that's it's getting kind of hard to not tell. "No. No secrets. What are you talking about. You guys are my besties. I don't keep secrets from you guys." I internally facepalmed.
I gave them a quick smile before trying to rush off only to have Damian pull me back, tears we're already gathering in my eyes when he made me turn towards him. "Bella." His voice was so soft as he pulled me into him laying my head on his chest, feeling him brush my hair back I let out soft whimpers. "I've been keeping secrets from you." I mutter into him hearing the first bell ring.
"Come." Wiping a few stray tears from my cheeks I grabbed both boys hands and dragging them to the janitors closet only to hear banging and moaning, it made me scowl. "Disgusting." Both males laughed behind me as I dragged them to one place I know no one will hear us, the library. "And you say your not a nerd." Colin mutters only coursing me to roll my eyes, but Damian beat me to it and punched him.
"Ow!" "Shhs." I giggled kindly and gave the librarian as she gave both boys a dirty look, grabbing there hands I brought them to my special place at the back with giant bean bags. Colin looked as if he knew what was happening and Damian looked kinda hurt that I never told him the secret, since I tell him everything. Everything but this. "So your secret." Colin smirked making me scowl at his cocky self.
"You got to promise me you won't tell anyone, please." My voice was so desperate, that coursed Colin to stop smirking but look confused. "Promise." Damian said with a truthful gaze well Colin just rolled his eyes and muttered promise. "Damian you had asked me a few months ago when you snuck into my house what the muffled screams we're in my house we're, remember." I asked biting my lip as tears gathered in my eyes again.
"Yes you said it was your Mother and Father." His voice wavered in confusion. "That wasn't a lie, but it wasn't the whole story." I mumble sniffing here and there. "Every since I was little my Papa would have 'friends' around, big bad men that Mama would always have to send me to my room." I glared at Colin as he gave a stiff laugh at the word Mama while Damian slapped the back of his head.
"And I would go and in the morning when I woke up they would be gone, but a few woman you stayed with other big brother and father. But Mama she... she would be cuffed to the bed, something always in her mouth to stop her from screaming. Covered in bruises and blood, I didn't know what was going on and Mama always said that if I said anything that Papa would force me to endure what Mama goes threw.
She told me to tell no one so I didn't, but as I got older it became more frequent and more violent. I had asked her once why she never left and she told me that she let's them do what ever they want to her so I wouldn't go through that, she said that I was to stay away from Papa and Big Brother at night to be safe. She only stays because of me.
I don't want to keep the secret anymore." I cried into my only friends, I didn't want to have to keep secrets anymore and I don't want my family to split up.
What do I do?
