It sucks when the only person who can make you feel better is also the reason why you always cry.
People think that the most painful thing in life is losing the one you value.
The truth is, the most painful thing is losing yourself in the progress of valuing someone too much forgetting that you are special too.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of yelling.
I'm tired of being sad.
I' m tired of pretending.
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of being angry.
I'm tired of feeling crazy.
I'm tired of feeling stuck.
I'm tired of needing help.
I'm tired of remembering.
I'm tired of missing things.
I'm tired of being different.
I'm tired of missing people.
I'm tired of feeling worthless.
I'm tired of feeling empty inside.
I'm tired of not being able to just let go.
I'm tired of wishing I could start all over.
I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have.
I'm tired of picking up all the broken pieces.
But most of all,
I'm just tired of being tired.
I'm lost here in this moment.
And time keeps slipping by.
And if I could have just one wish I'd have you by my side.
Nothing hurts more than being dissapointed by the person you thought would have never hurt you.
I always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that I'm not as great as you once thought it was.
It's not that I don't love you, It's that I finally realized yoy never loved me.
I still have feelings for you.
And no matter what how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with you, a part of me just won't let go.
I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, pretend like everythings all right, act like its all perfect, even though inside it really hurts.
Moving on. Sounds easy.
But I died a thousand times just to appreciate this phrase.
Sorry pillow, for the tears.
Sorry stomach, for the butterflies.
Sorry brain, for the overload.
Sorry heart, for the damage.
I wish my brain had a map to tell where my heart should go.
Sick of crying.
Tired of trying.
Yes, I'm smiling but inside...
I'm dying.
I hate that I miss you.
I hate that you forgot about me
I hate that you don't want me.
I hate that I still care about you.
You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will understand what pain really is until you have have lost it.
The truth is that it hurts becauae it's real.
It hurts because it's mattered.
And that's an important thing to acknowledge to yourself.
The worst feeling is wanting to cry but having to hold it because your in public.
I choose you.
And I'll choose you over and over and over
Without pause, without a doubt, in a heartbeat
I'll keep choosing you.
It hurts when you realized you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were.
I cry for the whole night just for you
My tears will dry that is true
But I can't live without you one more day... You're always in my heart, I swear
And if you call, I'll be there.
But I can't live without you one more night
And I promise I will touch the sky
If you ask me I will die
I saved my life only for you...
Stop falling
Stop texting back
Stop getting your hopes up
Stop telling yourself that it's going to be different , when you already know how it's going to end.
Someday, everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.
Truth is, I get jealous easily because whats mine is mine. I'm stubborn as hell, I say sorry too much. I act like I don't give a fuck because I care too much . I over analyze the smallest of things and probably come off as bitch to simply guard myself.
I hate how we never get our chances to see what could've been.
I hate how I know I'm not over you and how I pretend to be.
"I think it's time I let you go. And that's so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. But the daydreaming, the running in place , it's not healthy.
So this is me, cutting the cord. This is me doing what I should have done months ago; saying goodbye."
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