Just Getting Started On A Big Night

Peacefully Filling

Disclaimer - I don't own BTR or any songs that I may include in the chapters.

James

Kendall drove us all back to our houses and he parked in front of mine.

"Aren't you going to go to your house first?" asked Carlos.

"No, I can take a shower over here. I have a set of clothes in the trunk." said Kendall while staring at me. All of a sudden, I could feel the air get heavy, and I guess the boys in the backseat felt it too.

"Um... Logie and I are just gonna... Go... Bye!" Carlos yelped before jumping out of the car and running to his house, trying not to get too wet from the rain by using his hoodie as a makeshift umbrella.

Logan followed Carlos' lead and followed him to his house.

Then, it was just me and Kendall.

"Um, why did yo-" I couldn't finish my sentence. Kendall quickly unbuckled his seatbelt and somehow ended up in my lap. He leaned down and captured my lips in his. It wasn't like the kiss in the park; this one was filled with need and want, as if he'd wanted to kiss me forever, but also like there was something restraining him as well.

He started mumbling to me between kisses. "Did you... Know... That I've always... Had a huge crush on you? I've... Always thought that... You were straight..." he moaned into the kiss and unbuckled my seatbelt as well.

"How about we take this... Inside?" he suggested.

"Wait, wait, Kendall." he started sucking my neck. I pulled him off and forced him to look me in the eyes. "Kendall. Calm down. Are you okay?" I asked. He was starting to worry me. He's never acted like this before.

He looked away and sighed. "I guess that seeing Jo stirred some old feelings in me, and I suppose that I just wanted to prove those feelings wrong." he confessed.

"Why would you have to prove anything? You're a good person and you're able to love who you want, no matter what anyone says. Just because you dated Jo in the past doesn't mean that you still have any feelings for her. I don't want you to have to 'prove' anything to anyone, especially not me or even yourself." I tried to give him advice.

He sighed again. "You're right. I'm sorry. I just thought that you wouldn't want me or to be with me after everything that's happened with Jo. I guess I'm just a bit insecure right now..." he trailed off.

"I have an idea. How about we spend the rest of the night together. Not like the usual sleepovers we have, but just you and me. Alone. No Logan to yell at us about PDA or Carlos to scold anyone. Don't get me wrong, I love our friends, but I think tonight could be good for us!" I suggested, happy with the idea of getting to spend a night with Kendall, even if we didn't really do anything. It would still be awesome, especially because I would just be with him.

His eyes lit up at the suggestion and I could tell that he was starting to feel my excitement. He readily agreed and started rattling off about things that we could do. Both of us eventually settled on eating dinner and watching a movie afterwards.

I almost forgot that we still had one little pair of eyes watching us warily.

Kendall leaned up to kiss me, since I was a few inches taller than he was. "Ah...wait...Kenny." I pushed him off of me gently. "What are we gonna do about Fox? I'm not sure you would enjoy his presence on our date?"

He seemed to be in thought for a few minutes. "Okay, how about we drop him off at Carlos' house and the guys over there can watch him for tonight?"

I smiled. "Good idea."

We got out of the car and it was drizzling now, but we were still wet. I could feel Kendall staring at me from behind. I ignored it for now.