Well so I went walking...walking far away not running away but I needed to get out and think. I tried bleaching my hair blonde because it's black.But when I got to the salon the workers said its couldn't be because it was already blonde (that's what they saw). It hurt me just walking and jut sitting a sharp pain in my body. It's creating self harm I don't want to hurt myself but it won't make a difference. I can't control myself it hurts when I try so I just let it go. My mission now is to find the person in Italy.....but that's not possible I can't afford it.
