SPEAK NOW (ONE SHOT STORY)

...or forever hold your peace...

"I'm not the kind of boy, who rudely barge in on white viel occasions, but she's not the kind of girl,who should be marrying the wrong man...

June 19, 2015

Drip, drip, drip...

The rain pours hard outside, putcha! Nakisabay pa sa nararamdaman ko! Isinubsub ko sa unan ang pagmumukha ko. Pakshet na buhay to, bwesit talaga!

>_<!!!

I can't get her out of my mind! I'm thinking of her and her face and her tears, her desperation na ilayo ko sya at ang pagmamakaawa nya na pigilan ko ang arranged wedding nya na magaganap na BUKAS! Meyn! Masakit!

Yep bukas na ang kasal nya with some guy she have never met, even once! The man her dad said and I bitterly quote " the savior of the company! "

Pero ano pa ba ang magagawa ko, we're tormented and torn apart. I wish I had the courage to fight for her, to run away with her but, I don't, takot ako sa pwedeng mangyari kung gagawa kami ng bagay na alam namin pareho na walang kahahantungang mabuti.

I love her and ayokong magsuffer sya with me, I'm not as rich as the guy she will marry. I can't give her the life she rightfully deserve. That's why I chose to let her go,

totoo nga siguro ang sabi sa kanta na

"you only need the light when it's burning low,
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow,
Only know you love her when you let her go... "

And... I LET HER GO...

I picked my phone from the bedside table, I hovered my fingers across the screen and clicked "gallery" .

There, hundreds of photos of me and Jillian are stored. Photos when we went to Boracay, Baguio, Cebu and Batanes.
Even our movie nights, dates and dinners are still saved on my phone. Eto nalang ang meron ako, memories mula sa mga litrato na matagal nang lumipas at ang iba'y nalimutan na.

I opened a video from last year's christmas. Jillian and I spent the whole night together with my family wala naman kasi daw Christmas celebration sa bahay nila kaya we decided to celebrate it sa bahay ko.

*video*

"ten, nine, eight, seven, six," sabay naming sigaw. My brother was the one filming the video on my phone.
"five" and I pulled her closer to me. I held her waist. "four... " inilapit ko ang mukha ko sa mukha nya. "three...two..." malapit na malapit na ang mga labi ko sa mga labi nya. I smiled at her, " one... " then we kissed. "Merry Christmas babe... " sabi ko sa kanya.

"awwe ang sweet... " my brother said at the back of the camera. We stopped kissing.

" stop it man... " sabi ko sa kanya at kinuha ang camera. Now, I'm the one filming the video.

"hey babe... " tawag ko kay Jillian. " what do you want this christmas? "

She walked closer to the camera, then smiled, " Mr. Lorenzo Ariel Sevilleja, you're all I want this christmas hanggang sa new year and until matapos ang mundong ito... Because I love you... So much... " then she kissed on the camera.

*end of video*

I stopped the video at ibinato ko ang cp ko sa portrait namin sa harap ng aking kama. Nabasag ang glass cover ng portrait at halos sabay na nahulog sa sahig ang mga bubog at ang cp ko. The portrait was her gift nung 3rd year anniversary namin.

Then, I heard her laugh, tas may background na mga alon sa dalampasigan. Tumayo ako, Walanjo naman, buhay pa ang cellphone! Aba't ang lakas ng pagbato kong yun ah, basag nga lang ang glass sa screen pero gumagana parin. Pinulot ko ang cp ko, ibang video na naman ang nape-play. Ito yung nag-overnight kami sa beach with our barkada. Palubog na ang araw sa video, nakatwo-piece lang sya nun. She don't want me to film her kaya tumakbo sya sa dalampasigan habang ako naman ay humahabol sa kanya.