Hunting for her lost beating heart

The beginning of the 'Mission'

Plain white dingy walls surrounded me , the powerful smell of bleach scorched my sniffling nostrils ,the  dirty tiled floor lay lifelessly beneath my feet practically begging me to clean it , my swollen that were rimmed with an ugly redness leaked the hundreds of tears that had been locked up for years ,the once present beeping that filled the room was gone replaced by a bone chilling silence ,

The memory is burned in to my brain , what i have just described is what happened exactly a year ago. That day was the day that i lost the true love of my life the one i would give anything up for.

I'm not saying that Alexis was perfect in every way because she wasn't she had her faults and flaws like how one of her front teeth was slightly bigger than the other , or the fact that she didn't have a perfect body and that sometimes her face would break out in spots which then resulted in her staying in the house until every single one had disappeared , but the biggest fault she had was the tumor on her brain  that was the reason that caused her to leave me alone and heart broken.

That day was when Alexis slipped away the tumor in her brain had grown too big and she could no longer fight it , no matter how strong she was.

The first sign of the brain tumor was when she was six her mother had noticed changes in her attitude and the way that she would do things , at first she just thought of it as normal that Alexis was independent and liked to things in her own way ,but then more serious thing started to happen , she would have constant headaches , the movement in her arms and legs became restricted and she had speaking difficulties.After this her mother took her to the doctors who then referred her to the hospital where she was then diagnosed with having a brain tumor.

Her mother was devastated her six year old daughter was surely enough dying , slowly loosing all of the qualities she needed to lead a good life. However the doctor told Alexis's mum they if they operated straight away there could be a chance that Alexis could make a full recovery and live a normal life without the brain tumor.

Alexis had the surgery she needed , the surgeons were able to remove most if not all of the tumor and said that Alexis would need a little bit of physio to help her movement and speech but after that she should be fine and true to the doctors word she was until eleven years later when the tumor returned this time bigger and much more life threatening.

Me and Alexis had been going out since we were fourteen we had met in high school and became good friends one thing led to another and we grew closer and then i finally plucked up the courage to ask her out , when i asked her the first time she refused saying that she didn't want to risk the friendship we had , but a week passed and i asked her again i wanted to be able to hold her to kiss her whenever i wanted, all i wanted to be able to call her mine . This time she accepted and said that she was just scared of what the relationship would be like.

After about two months together she took me to her house to meet her mother , father and older brother Dean. I instantly became friends with Dean due to the amount of stuff that we had in common i also found it easy to talk to her mother and father. At first i found that they were watching my every move , listening to every word that i said and so on , but after about a week or so of meeting them her father said that he was more than happy to let me carry on dating his daughter because he saw how happy i made her. I then let her meet my Mother , my father was not around and i was an only child Alexis was great with my mother they got on extremely well , sharing stories and gossiping about the soaps and other things that women speak about.

From then on our relationship only grew stronger and stronger each day. We had our fair share of arguments and disagreements but we fought through it we let nothing stand in our way. Well nothing until just after her seventeenth birthday when she started getting very painful headaches again , she just shrugged them off pinning it down to the stress of college and other things in her life like trying to find a job , but then she started to forget things like what time i was picking her up for a night out or where she left something of hers.

Her mother didn't like the signs she was seeing so she took Alexis back to the hospital and her worse fears were confirmed the tumor had come back but this time it was much much worse there was nothing any doctor or highly skilled surgeon could do to save Alexis , her life was slowly growing shorter and shorter with each passing day , but she didn't let that bother her she lived her life the the fullest but shortly afterwards the more major symptoms of the tumor started to take effect like the restricted movements in her arms and legs and also her speech became harder to understand ,she became bed bound.

A week before she died she was taken in to hospital , they wanted to make sure that the few  days she had left she spent in comfort and not pain, they injected her with morphine to make the pain subside , but no matter how much morphine they gave her it didn't stop the pain in mine or any of her families hearts. Slowly we started to loose her each day her eyes would close a little more and her breathing would become less regular until we lost her all together. Me , her mother , her father , Dean  and my mother were all there when we witnessed her take her very last breath.

From that day on i have not been the same neither has her family , i blocked everyone out , i didn't care about anything else all i cared about was that i had lost her, i had lost the girl i wanted to marry and have kids with , the girl that could brighten up my whole day just with her smile.

Just before she died Alexis told the doctors that she wanted to donate her organs , she wanted other people to live a good life and if that meant that she would have to give them her organs then so be it. She didn't see the point of keeping her organs in her body when someone else who really needs them could have them to survive. When she died they took her Lungs , Liver , Kidney's , Pancreas but most importantly her heart and from this day on i am making it my mission to hunt down and find her lost heart.

Hey this is my new story , i hope that you like it so far even though it is only the first chapter leave a comment telling me if you like it or vote , thanks xoxoxox