This feeling isnt like any other. Its the kinda feeling that burns you and pierces your heart without any warning. It pains you to think about him. Your eyes begin to burn but no tear flow out like you want. You dont know who you are anymore. What you wanna be. Where u belong. He changed you in so many ways, its impossible to forget him. You feel like a stranger in your own skin, in your own family, house, your own life. You try to drown it out with music. The feeling still remains. Why wont it just go away?!
You try and try but its no use your stuck like this. You just wanna run away. Walk in some unknown street. Be someone nobody knows. Be in a new place with a new begins. But you know deep down that wont change anything. Because you still dont have him. Somebody to hold you. Somebody to look you in the eyes and say i love you. But yet you still cant cry. No matter how much you want to. Its getting colder and colder as you sit and think and wait. Wait for him. When you know he is never coming back. Your just stuck out in the cold. No warmth. No love. No life. Just pain....
You walk inside for search of some kind of warmth, relief. From this strange unknown feeling. But it gets worst. You feel even more lost, even more pain. Longing for his words "hold on to my hand" "you will be safe with me." " your my everything". Longing for his touch, on your face, arms,skin. Just the way he breathes draws you in. But a last he has someone new. Someone older, smarter, prettier, and not you.
You thought you where over it. Him. The times you shared in your memories. You love him no matter what you guys go through. He calls you names, you for give him. You know the things that keep you apart keep you alive. But you cant let go.
You hold on to that skinny, thin piece of thread. You hang on for dear life.
Until he cuts it. And down you fall. And POOF! Your gone.
