Home Sweet Home

chapter 1

Cc's pov

This is the 4th damn school ive moved to in a two year time period. No matter what i do nobody ever likes me... Whatever though i don't wnat anyone to be burdened by me.

I've been to sad to do any of my work lately so I'm retaking a lot of classes over again. Damn near failed last year. Including the one I'm in right now, algebra 2. I dont even try to pay attention anymore because i know that one day I'll get the courage to just end it all... I feel that moment coming soon.

*rinnnnnnggggggg*

Finally i can get this first day of school over with I'm not exactly bullied anymore (until they find out im gay..) but im just that kid that nobody ever talks to, and i like it that way after ive been stabbed in the back so many times. My dads abusive, my ex boyfriend was too which explains why they got along so well. I took out my ear buds from my pocket and put them in, blasting bring me the horrizon in my ears. Most of the time i dont even listen i just use it to block out the voices in my head.

When i was out of sight of the school i slowly pulled up my sleeves just above where the last line of cuts from yesterday ended, so i can start a new group today. I always cut on the way home from school to forget about what happened today, and to get me numb for what's going to happy to me when i get home.

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I kept going until i couldn't feel anything anymore, only the burning. I liked it that way. My thoughts slowly cleared up and a small smile apeared on my face. Something felt weird though like there was somebody watching my every move i made. Before i got the chance to turn around here was a tap on my shoulder and it scared the shit out of me.  I jumped and pulled out my ear buds making me drop the small razor out of my hand. "Sorry to scare you i um...i walk this way home to.. My names jinxx" he said with a lack of confidence. I turned around to see a boy who was 6 inches shorter than me but looked generally the same as me. Black clothes, black eyeliner, black teased hair, black, black and more black everywhere. He's really cute but he's probably not gay. Remember what happened the last time.

*flash back*

It was the 8th grade. Back in middle school people thought it was super weird to be anything other than straight so we all kinda of kept it to ourselves. I befriended this boy who liked the same things as me but he wasnt an outcast like me. He was friends with everyone. One day i decided to come right out and say that i had a crush on him. From that day on i was known as chris the fag and bullied for 2 years till i finally moved across the state...when my mom died.

*end of flashback*

"Uh...? Where do you live?" he asked shyly. I pointed to the subdivision. "I live in there, i think its called maple leaf rd or something." i said shrugging. He was a nice kid and all i just didn't want to get attached and have him leave me. "Cool i live on the next street over..." he said forcing a smile. There was something mysterious about this kid that i liked.. Like i wanted to stare at him all day and listen to everything he had to say. The walk home was silent but somewhat comforting with his presence. "Hey i up never got your name" he whispered when we got in front of my house. I held out my hand. "Give me your phone." i said with a small smile. He handed me his phone and i put my information in. When i handed it back to him he looked down at his phone and said "CC." with a genuine smile. I blushed and nodded. Wow it felt good to hear him say my name. Text me later. I'm going to go take a shower i feel discusting from school. He nodded. "Same here. Will do" he smiled and waved bye then walked away. I watched him for a moment then glanced at my driveway. Thank god he's not home. I sighed in relief and went inside, straight up to my bedroom.

Jinxx's pov

My mind was all over the place i usually never feel this good unless I'm high on something. I saw him walking home and i wasnt going to say anything but i saw that he had a razor in his hand and watching him cut without even cringing made me really sad. My goal was to get him to drop it in the grass, which he did, but probably has more. I also wanted to say something to him about it but I'm to quiet and shy to mention anything like that in person..maybe when be get to be closer friends. If he even wants to be friends. Great i thought myself into a bad mood again so i immediately went to my room and locked the door. Nobody understands why i do the things i do but me.. I have my reasons and its no one elses business except for mine. I grabed everything i needed and went into the bathroom then looked the door. Its an expensive habbit doing heroin but i don't even care because it's the only thing thats kept me from not killing myself yet.

He's going to hate you because you're gay. Hes gonna hate you. Faggot. These thoughts swarmed my brain so i tied the tie tight around my upper arm and began to feel the sweet Adrienne plus through my veins. I lit the candle and grabed the bottle. I smiled because it's been so long since ive done this.

After it was in its liquid form i flicked the deadly syringe to eliminate any airbubbles that might cause me pain as it entered my veins. I extended my left wrist and pushed the needle into the vein on the back of my elbow. Instantly i was soring to new highs and i leaned my head on the edge of the bathtub with a smile on my face. I took my time cleaning everything up, then i plopped down on the bed and started playing some Metallica.

Soooo this is the first chapter. Not many people ship cinxx so xD i hope this goes well. Skdjksdjfjdjf