I found you.

Chapter 4

{Kurt's POV}

The best thing that has happened to me in a while, just walked out on me. I feel like I just got punched in the stomach. Why was he so upset? Does he have feelings for me?No, he can't. Why would he like me? The person that always ruins everything! 

I watched him walk out and I felt tears streaming down my face. Why didn't I just say I was gay? I was madly in love with Blaine Devon Anderson.  Never in a million year he would think the same about me.

He is just so perfect. His smile. His hair. His eyes. God, those eyes. I could stare into them forever. They were so mesmerizing. His body. His lips. Everything was just so perfect about him. I just stayed in the coffee shop for a while to gather up my thoughts. I felt so awful for doing that to him. Great, now I have to act straight. That was the last thing I wanted to do.

{Three days later}

I feel so broken. I can't eat properly. I don't even do my hair, which is really important to me. I can barely sleep. All I think about is Blaine. Blaine. He's always on my mind. He hasn't spoken to me since Monday. Every time I walked up to him and wanted to talk he just ignored me, or walked away. I hate this.

I walked down the stairs to eat breakfast when I saw my dad sitting at the table reading the newspaper.

"Dad, what are you doing up so early?" I asked him. He never gets up at this time.

"To talk to you Kurt. What is going on with you? You look like a mess. All I hear is crying everyday. It looks like you haven't slept in days. You've lost about ten pounds. What is up?" He asked me. My eyes swelled with tears and I began sobbing.

"Me-e an-d Bl-aine got into a f-fight I g-uess", I said in-between sobs," He ask-ed me I-f I-I wa-s ga-y-y." I returned still sobbing. He looked quite suprised.

"And I guess you said no." I nodded at his statement.

"I panicked, Dad! I really like him more than a friend and I didn't want to ruin our friendship because he can't possibly like me back. I mean, I ruin everything I look at, for god's sake." I said angrily. 

"Kurt, your'e amazing and I see no reason why Blaine wouldn't like you. I think you should talk to him." He simply answered.

"I've tried but i think he needs more time. I do too." I got up and put myself together before walking out the door before he could say anything. I ran to my Navigator and turned the engine on and drove to school. 

This was going to be a long day...

{Blaine's POV}

I feel like crap. I haven't done anything these past few days. I stopped gelling my hair. I stopped eating. I can't sleep. It's Kurt. He's always on my mind. I love him. But of course he couldn't feel the same about me because he's straight. Right?

I sat through the whole day without saying a word. I saw Kurt a few times. He looked terrible. His hair wasn't even fixed. He looks like he's lost ten pounds. He looks so tired. Wait, why am I feeling bad for him? He broke my heart. But I still love him. I have to get over him but I just can't

There was one thing to help. Singing. I've never told anyone, but I can sing. I think I'm okay but I don't care. It helps when I'm feeling down. Like for instance, Today. 

The last school bell rang and I got up immediately and made my way to the auditorium. I found it and walked in. Luckily, it was empty. I walked to the stage that was in the front of the many rows of seats in front of it. I went up the stairs and went to the middle of the stage. I knew what song I needed to sing.

"Share my life,take me for what I am

Cause I'll never change all my colors for you

Take my love, I'll never ask for too much 

Just all that you are and everything that you do.

I don't really need to look very much further.

I don't wanna have to go where you don't follow

I won't hold it back again, this passion inside

Can't run from myself 

There's no where to hide

Don't make me close one more door

I don't wanna hurt anymore 

Stay in my arms if you dare

Or must I imagine you there

Don't walk away from me

I have nothing, nothing,nothing

If I don't have you,you,you,you,you

You see through right to the heart of me

You break down my walls with the strength of your love

I never knew love like I've known it with you

Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to

I don' really need to look very much further

I don't wanna have to go where you don't follow

I won't hold it back again,this passion inside

I can't run from myself

There's nowhere to hide

Your love I'll remember forever

Don't make me close one more door

I don't wanna hurt anymore

Stay in my arms if you dare

Or must I imagine you there

Don't walk away from me

I have nothing,nothing,nothing

If I don't have you,oh,ooh,ooh"

I finished the song in tears. I hated feeling like this. I hated being mad at the person I love. But I feel better now since I put my emotions through a song that means a lot to me. I gathered my things and left the auditorium without another word.

{AN} 

Hey guys! No, I did not forget about this story. I had some writer's block, but now I am fine. I start school in two days so I won't be able to update on weekdays. I can update on weekend. I'll post maybe one or two chapters tomorrow. 

Goodbye, Paighton ;)