Loving Can Hurt

Loving can hurt...

Kapag nagmahal ka, hindi mo maiiwasan ang masaktan. But the question is: Gaano kasakit? At hanggang saan mo matitiis?

Im Hayley. I'm on my 2nd year in high school when I had my first boyfriend. My first that I've been in a relationship. Para sa akin, it was love. Not a mature one but still, I call it true love. But in other peoples' perspective it's just a puppy love. Oo, alam ko. But I just shrugged it off, because I want to feel it, the feeling when somebody's loving you, taking care of you and respecting you. Sa madaling salita, I just want to love and to be loved. At ang mahirap nga doon ay ang magmamahal ka lang masasaktan ka pa.

Katulad nalang nang sinasabi ng karamihan, love truly hurts. Yes and it sucks really big time. No one wishes to be hurt like that. But hell, it's the reason why we love, we let ourselves getting hurt until the pain was over, and then we do it again. And again. And again. All over. At sa huli, makikita mo na mag isa ka nalang. Nasaan na yung ipinaglalaban mo? Like me, they always left me behind.

Hindi ko alam, why would they left me? Am I not enough? Did I do something wrong? The fact that I gave all of me, and yet I got nothing in return. Just fuck all of them...

How did they break up with me? Well, you'll see... this is the beginning... my first heartache.

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