Hi...., my name is Jelena I am a girl, and I've been living my life a lie since forth grade, so about three years ago. I did this because I didn't want to keep on being the girl that kept on being bullied, that was a geek, that was ugly. I easily fixed being called ugly by putting on a whole bunch of makeup on everyday. I never leave the house without makeup on or something to hide my face to hide my imperfections. I only did that because I got so insecure about my face that I was afraid about what everybody else would think about my face. I also turned everything around and became a completely new person. I turned into a extreme "slut" I guess you could say. I know it probably doesn't seem real for a girl in grade 4 to start something like that but when people hear gossip like that it spreads around faster than a Ebola x100.
I stared to fully do this after I told everyone that I had sex for the first time, with my best guy friend, Jake. I said I did because I forgot who I really was. I actually Believed that I was actually that person. I was falling for my own lie. After realizing this I could never look at myself the same way. That's why I decided to make this book, so no one will make the same mistake as I did.
Every day I look at my self and and a simple question, "Do I regret doing all this to myself" and every single time it's the answer "yes."
