Only You

Rikas past

This happened before I became close with the boys.
And happened when I was about 4-6 years old.
I came home once from school and saw my mum having an affair with my dad.
I was disgusted at what I saw and mum just didn't care.
"Don't tell your dad or I will beat you!
Understand!?" She shouted at me.
I didn't move an inch.
What happened to my mum?
The one that was loving, kind and caring?
Why is she doing this?
I thought mum and dad were in love?
Or was it only dad?
"Understand?!" She shouted.
I stayed silent.
"I said do you understand rika?!?" She shouted and slapped me.
I just wanted to run away from home.
This kept carrying on everytime dad was at work,
Mom didn't even care if I was at home or not,
She still carried on doing it.
The worse thing is that it wasn't even the same man,
She kept bringing home different men.
And everytime I tried to say anything to her she just hit me.
So I just kept going to school with bruises.
But of course no one cared,
Even when I was at school.
I wasn't close with any of the boys and all the girls hated me.
Why?
Because apparently now is the age to fall in love,
A lot of the boys kept confessing to me for some reason.
I don't understand what they liked about me though.
I wasn't interested in love though,
Especially after what happened with my mum..
And all the girls kept distancing theirselves from me and it escalated to bullying me.
They did physical bullying a few times which put me in the hospital for a while,
But of course they didn't care and carried on.
My dad was the only one that cared and mum just never came even if I was in the hospital or if something happened to me.
Only dad came.
Dad came home early once to surprise us and caught mum hitting me.
"Is this why Riku always had bruises?
You never told me why she had bruises..
This was what was happening all the time?"
He looked shocked and hurt.
I have to tell him everything.
"Dad," i said while tears started to run down my face.
Mum has been having an affair with you for a year.
She said that i cant tell you or else she would beat me." I said.
"Why you little brat!" Mum said and was about to slap me until i shouted out.
"But i dont care anymore!" I shouted and mum and dads eyes widened.
"This isnt the mum that i know!
This isnt the one that loved me and my dad and cared about us.
What happened to you mum?!" I shouted.
Mum started to cry and she muttered something sadly and left the house.
"Yuwa..!" Dad called out mums name.
"I-im s-so sorry ri-rika,
I-i couldnt do a-anything for you.
After ev-everything that hap-happened i didnt know about anything that was happening to you.." Dad stuttered while crying.
"Its fine dad,
Its okay now.
I know that you care,
Thats more than enough." I said.
I cant cry anymore.
I have to be brave.
I cant be a burden.
I have to be strong.
Dad said that he came home early because of an promotion and we moved away.