Adopting me. -1D FANFIC

Chapter 1

I would love to tell you that i'm a normal teenage girl, but i'm not. I don't trust barely anyone, with anything, why should i?

After my real one, i had been with 5 different families, all sending me back when they thought i was too much to handle, i didn't know what it was, but whenever i was at a new home i turned angry, troublesome and surprisingly rude, thats not who they saw when i was here, and i'm sure that dissapointed them all. They all thought i put it on, that i didn't like them, that i just chose not to like them, what no one seemed to realise was that it was my past that made me like that, not allowing anyone get close enough to hurt me again, the only one that realised, and i allowed in, was Sarah.

Sarah was one of the workers at the orphanage, she was the only one that tried with me, all the others had given up, Jade, Rose, Pheobe, none of them understood, and passed me on to someone else. Sarah had been there since the beginning, i only got to know her when she stopped me from moving orphanages.

No one wanted me, none of the workers wanted me, and i was about to get a transfer, when she persuaded them to let her try. All i can say is, it's the best thing that had ever happened to me in my life. She was the only person there that i talked to, shared things with, i still hadn't told her anything about my past though, it made me shudder thinking about it, no one knew the truth about what had happened, they knew the basics, but not everything, i was the only one that could ever know.

It's not that i didn't want a family, i did, but i couldn't allow anyone to get close to me that way, i couldn't allow myself to build up my trust to someone, just for them to smash it down, ripping me apart along with it.

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I let out a sigh as i stared down at the floor outside the orphanage outside the window from my bedroom. I would be leaving in an hour, my last hours in this place, then leaving to go to some strangers house, only to live there for 2 weeks before returning. It always happened that way. i guess i could try to fight my problems, but i couldn't promise anything

Time was pssing suprisingly quickly, now only 20 minutes. I look around my room, i guess i would be back soon, no need to worry or panic. I jumped off my windowsill looking at my very small suicase packed with all my stuff. I didn't have as many clothes as the others, shoes, books, electronics, i didn't even have a phone. I was never fussed about anything like that, i mean, who would i talk to on it anyway? I had no friends, no family, what was left?

'Becky?' I heard a questioning voice behind me. Sarah was standing in the doorway. She looked sad. i walked up to her and gave her a hug, form someone who was almsot double my age, she wasn't much taller than i was, i guess that made me feel better around her, i didn't feel intimidated.

'I'm going to miss you,' she whispered into my ear,i couldhear the tears forming in her eyes. 

'I'll be back soon, you know i will, it always happens, i'm not good enough for anyone.' I always spoke what was on my mind, i guess thats what annoyed people the most. Sarah sighned andpushd me out of the hug, holding me gentlybut the shoulders.

'Becky.... you now thats not true.' She looked at me now, he clear blue eyes pouring into mine, she spok firmly but gently. Truth was, i knew it WAS tru,everyone did, i just accepted it while none of the others did. I didn't say anything.

'Just try for this one, please? I think this may be the one, they're nice, i promise you.' Her voice softened even more as a small smile crept on her face. I guess i could try, but only for her. I looked at my watch, it was time. I looked up at her and smiled.

'Come on, they're downstairs,' Her voice was sad again. I grabbed my small bag and followed behind her, taking a quick last glance at my room before cosing the door and making my way downstairs.

We turned up at the door that read 'adoption office'. I turned to face Sarah. She gave me a massive hug, before releasing me, and smiling at me. 'Good luck' she mouthed, as she backed awayslowly then turned. She hesitated before striding away. It's now or never, i wish it was never. I closed my eyes slowly before opening the door and walking inside.