seven stages

Acceptance

dear frank
you're gone.

you no longer exist on this Earth.

and that's okay.
you're dead.
and that's okay.

death is inevitable, and there's no way to avoid it and the pain it brings.
death is the sting of a lovers words as they leave,
the last breath of a parent,
the last rose on the coffin lid,
the guilt as the ground is filled.

death is pain

and that's okay.

i've realised that through your death, i found out where i need to be.
who i should be.
and that's okay.

frank, you changed me. through our teenage love that could not be any more powerful than it was, you helped me to realise that the world is not always good. not everybody gets their happy ending.

you sure didn't, but that's okay.

and frank, it still feels like days
but it's been months

and as i'm standing here, on the edge of this old bridge, the wind whipping my hair, stinging my skin, i'm realising that i was never meant to have a happy ending, and i can give that chance to somebody else.

and my hands are shaking, but frank, i'm coming back to your arms.

and my feet are leaning over the ledge, but frank, i'm coming back to your kiss.

and i'm falling, but frank, i'm coming home.

dear frank, i love you. i'll see you soon.