Never Let Me Go

Chapter 1

Robs POV

It was finally time. I couldn't help but let out a small squeal and jump up and down a bit when I saw the all too familiar box pop up with Preston's gorgeous profile picture looking back at me. I always get excited when Preston and I get into calls together. Truth is, I have a major crush on him. Like, a big one. I've had it for awhile but it's not like I'm going to act on it or anything. I mean, Preston isn't even gay or bi or anything... right? So here I sit at 2 AM freaking out in my office over some guy who will never love me. I quickly calmed down so I wouldn't look like a fool when I clicked on the green button to answer the call. I adjusted my seating position so I was a bit more comfy. I looked back up to my screen to greet the beautiful Pearston, but what I saw was something that completely caught me off guard. I sat there, legs turning to jello at what Preston's camera was capturing. Preston was sitting there... Shirtless. Either I'm dreaming or I'm hallucinating. I couldn't help but stare. I mean just look at his muscular, handsome body. I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest. Good god, just look at him. Everything about him is just... yes. I'm just glad I had my camera off, I was just staring at his sexy body, blushing. That would be utterly embarrassing if he saw me scoping his hot body out.
"ROBBBBB"
"Huh oh hi Preston"
"How's everything going my dearest woof?"
'Perfect now that you're here' I thought to myself
"Pretty good"
"Great, so you want to begin recording Skywars, or did you have something else in mind?"
"Oh yeah, sure."
We began recording an interesting video of Team Skywars. We played for awhile until we decided it just wasn't good enough footage and that they could proceed another time. I kept getting killed because I wasn't paying attention. I mean how could I after seeing Preston shirtless. He was so hot. Oh the things I would do to hi-
"Earth to Robert!"
I snapped back into reality at the sound of Preston calling my name.
"Oh, yeah what's up?"
"Is everything ok? You've been acting pretty distant and odd today."
We sat there in an awkward silence for what seemed like forever, until I got the courage to get somewhat a sentence out if my mouth.
"I um... I got to go be back later sorry" I stammered before quickly ending the call. Oh crap what did I just do. Did I really just do that? Did I just hang up on my best friend? Oh no, he's going to figure out about the crush, oh no. What am I going to do? Is he going to hate me? He probably is going to tell everyone and ruin my YouTube career. Is he? I couldn't help but panic when I got a message from Preston, probably coming to tell me that I'm worthless and he never wanted to talk to me again.
"Hey um I'm sorry if I did something, I'm always here for you if you need me bro. Love ya"

It pained me to read that message knowing that he will never love me,  not more than a friend that is. My dreams were only dreams. No matter how far I reached for the stars, all I would do is get lost in the darkness. I logged off skype and turned off my computer, I wasn't in any mood to be on my computer, or be reminded of the events that just took place. I went and plopped down on my bed wishing all my worries would go away. I laid there, thinking about what it would be like to wake up with Preston in my arms. Me cradling him while he softly slumbered away. I closed my eyes picturing the scenario. I fell into a deep slumber not soon after.  I began to have an odd, yet dream that wasn't new in any way shape or form. It happened every now and then and was usually always the same apart from some slight differences that were practically irrelevant. 
I was laying in a flower field. The bright, beautiful sun beaming at me from afar. The clear, blue skies above me were calming. I sat up to gaze at the glorious, colorful flowers. This was my happy place. Here I felt safe and secure. These flowers had such a deep meaning to them. The way they bloom into vivid, stunning colors. Grasping peoples eyes to stare at the beauty. But when they begin to wilt, people see them as gross and disgusting. Just like people see other. I began to drift off into the depths of my thoughts. That's when I heard a cackle come from behind me. I turned around to see an evil grinning Preston staring down at a blooming rose. He proceeded to stomp on it crushing it to bits and pieces. The once romantic, red rose was now being crushed beneath Preston's foot. I swiftly got up and dashed to him.
"What the hell Preston!"
He didn't even look at me, he just bent down, picked up the mutilated rose, and began to speak in a calm voice.
"This rose is our like our friendship dearest Robert. Everything seemed perfect and beautiful. Until you caught feelings for me. So I'm putting a stop to this. You really think WE could be a thing? I knew you were foolish but c'mon good sir. How could anyone ever love someone as pathetic and worthless as you."
He crushed the flower even more. Then looked up and stared blankly into my eyes.
"You're nothing Robert, nothing."
Tears stung my eyes and I tried to blink them away, only resulting in them streaming down my face.
"Please... I l-love you... Please." I stuttered. 
"Foolish."
With that, he walked away into the never ending field of flowers. But it was true though, I was a fool. Everything he said was completely true. I mean, why would anybody like me? I'm just down right horrific. I'm worthless and unwanted.

I shot up in my bed panting and trying to catch my breath. It was only a dream... Or more like a nightmare. I couldn't help but let out a soft sob. Deep down, I know that's what awaits me if Preston finds out about me being in love with him. This is tearing me to shreds, I don't know how much longer I can pretend to be ok in front of Preston.