One Year Boy

One year boy - 4

I kept thinking of what I did over and over. All night. Its already morning. I can't believe I kissed my best friend. Especially since he's a guy. I mean I'm not guy... well I Dont think I am. I've had girlfriends , I've had sex with girls. I've never been with a dude.. what was I thinking...

I would get up from bed and look at the time.

"Shit..time to go to school.." I'd say to myself.

I really don't want to go. Jordi will be there and shit is already awkward..But If I Dont go, I won't hear the end of it from my parents.

I would sigh and walk over to my closet and throw clothes on and head out the door. I decided to walk today. To think and stuff.

I finally ended up in front of my school. I walked fast hoping not to see jordi. I spot jordi and his friends. I tried my best to ignore him looking at me. But couldn't help it. Why does he look so hurt..

As I passed them, I walked to my shrinks office.

"Um..I have a appointment with ms.b" I'd say to the assistant who obviously look like she'd rather be a gold digger in L.A then be here.

I would giggle at my sense of humor.

"Kay go in" She'd say.

I would head into the office, Where ms.b would be sitting at her desk with a empty right in front of her.

"How have you been Jason." She'd say eyeballing me.
"Oh ms.b stop checking me out." I'd say playfully.
She would blush.
"E-Excuse me!-" She'd say.
"Ms.B I kissed my best guy friend and now I Dont know what to do nor feel." I'd say laying my head on her desk.

She would stay silent, she looked speechless but yet was trying to think.

"Um..I-I..Well do you like him?" She'd say while patting my head.

Do I like him. Do I Jason like Jordi. I didn't think about that. I mean He's always been there. And he accepts I can die a year from now..But.. How do I feel about him.

"I Dont Know.." I'd say confused.
" Maybe you need to figure out if you see him as a best friend or more." She'd say with a smile like she completed her job.

She right. I need to figure out my feelings.

"Thanks b see ya" I'd say.
Then rush out her class, To my next classes.

All day during class I've been thinking about how do I feel. I still quiet Dont get but I know there is feelings for Jordi.

The bell would ring being it was time to get the hell out and go home. Which snapped me out of my deep thoughts.

I would walk down the hallway to the entrance until something pulls me into the janitors closet.

"H-Hey is this a prank because I swear to god , you will beg your mom to give you to a foster home!" I'd shout swinging my arms around.

Then would hear a familiar laugh.

"J-Jordi..?" I'd whisper.

Then the light would go on and jordi would be in front of me smiling.

I would try to escape but jordi didn't let me grabbed me by my hand and locked the door.

"Dont run away" He'd whisper, leaning closer to me.

I'd then push him away.
"I'm not. Say what you got to say"
Jordi was use to my cold attitude.

"Look I don't want things to get awkward between us. You're my best friend man " he'd say.

Its true, Jordi is the only friend I can actually say I have. A small matter shouldn't break us apart.

"Fine..let's forget what happened OK?" I'd say.
He would nod and hug me.
My heart is racing so fast. What the hell.