Permanent Change

Chapter 1

Dianna Rose Carlos thats me, but you can call me Dan. I do have friends, I do! but I don't tell them any secrets at all. I don't do gossips with them or tell them any personal things about me cause I know it will always end with them and me being friends.

I don't mind knowing new friends every now and then because everyone of them would always leave me behind with no definite reason.

Do you know the feeling when you treat someone as your best friend, tell them your secrets and such and then in a blink of an eye they betray you by telling other people your secrets.

What the hell! It's not your story to tell. get a life bitch!

Yes bestfriend and friend have a very big difference! And trust me you wouldn't want to have a bestfriend lying behind your back cause it just hurt real bad. And I would prefer going home at break time than sharing a table with the guys I talk with and hearing them gossip and bad mouth each other.

Right now, the class I'm in is Algebra with Mr. Brook. I don't know his full name, don't ask me why. This boring subject is in 2nd period and it seems like our dearest teacher is sick and we are not allowed to go out until the bell ring.

"Did you know that Samantha is with Jack yesterday making out at his car! I mean the girl can do better than that douchebag." Steff my first ever "friend" ever since the start of sem last week told me making weird faces.

"Is Samantha your friend?" I ask rising my eyebrow.

"Yeah. I just can't stop myself from keeping it on my own. It's not like I'm the only one who knows it." She defends herself.

"It's her life, let her do whatever she wants." I just shrug opening my old yet one of my favorite book, Romeo and Juliet.

"You already finished The Notebook?" She ask in awe, literally her mouth open. What can I do? I love these books. My babies.

"Come on, the book is not even that thick! Everyone can finish it in one sitting!" I'm not bragging at all. The girl in front of me is just so not into book thats why she doesn't finish every book she has started.

"Nerd!" She scream a little then smile widely at me.

After 2 hours sitting at Algebra without doing anything, the bell rings and everyone makes their way to the door while I stay at my place waiting for everyone to go out first.

I didn't even notice that everyone is already gone and the next students to use this room is already entering. So I hurried went out and didn't even see some of my 'friends'.

They left me behind. Of course.

One time in freshman year I was telling my friends a gossip, I told them 3 things I know that they did't know. Of course bring them as a gossip girls they kept on asking me what are those things.

Curiosity got them like bitch!

I was lying about knowing some gossip, I just wanted to see their reactions. And there's one of my friend who got super carried away and assume that she's the one I'm talking about.

She got mad and next thing I know, everyone is mad at me and I didn't even know why.

This is what I really don't like, no one has ever trust anyone ever. They make the things complicated more complicated.

So who needs a friend that's only there when they need you and gone when you need them? Not me.

I'd rather be alone and be myself.