My Dad -

13th of July, 2015

The first Day that he is on the hospital.

Since my travel is four hours from home I constantly asked my mom and my sister what is happening each and every minute. I am riding alone and I couldn't do anything but cry and pray. And than when three hours had past my Mom sent me a message asking if I could reach Dad's brothers and sisters because He is on critical point of his life and I was like seriously Mom? And she replied, he might. And I would want to shout at the driver and say do it fast because my Dad is dying and I cannot afford that and I am thinking to fly or not to go I mean I cant see him like that or maybe I could make him fight if he see him or hear me or if we pray.

And then I am now at the hospital, my mom give me this very tight hug and I cannot breath and I pushed her away and said Mom I'm sorry and I grab her hand and asked if I can see Dad.

I am entering the Intensive Care Unit and I saw him on the first bed with a lot of equipment and then I stop in a minute and compose myself cause I don't want to sound scared.

I grab his hand and say " Dad I am now here, I am your eldest child It's me, Devi." I didn't get any response and I am thinking maybe he's asleep because way back when I told him the same thing he told me "Oh there you are, how are you?" So I repeat it again. "Daddy I am now here, I am Devi I am your child Daddy." He didn't give any response and I called him again "Daddy!" "Daddy Please move your fingers if you can hear me." He do not move. And I pause get my hand back and I wanted to cry and scream but I don't want Dad to hear that because he might panic. I pulled back because I cannot do it, but I went back again and said "Daddy we are all here waiting for you and you should be well because we cannot live without you."

And then he shed tears, I grab him hands, I kissed him in the forehead, I hugged him and said "Daddy you are strong and you can do this, we've been doing this thing several times and I know you still can because we will attend Kim's graduation and he will pass the board exam and then a year after that Danna will graduate as well. And she will be working with me. And then the kids will eventually graduate in high school ans we will send them to the university. As soon as life gets well I will get married and you will send me their and time will pass you'll have grand child and you'll take care of them in a house I own and I am so sure you want to be there so you hurry up Dad get in that bed because life awaits."

And he bring more tears, I told him, "Nothing to be afraid of because we will be supporting you and not leave you, we will do everything as long as you give us a yes before that Dad lets seek God's help let us pray and no matter what God will embrace you."

We prayed I told him that I would be needing to talk to her doctor and asked what is really happening. I grab his hand too tight again and he doesn't give no more tears.

His doctor is his childhood friend and talking to me right now, "Better yet call everyone in the family now because he is not good and I cannot give you figures because he is in a deep coma." At the back of my mind, " Wont give us no hope? Not at all, how could you." He explained what happened and I would not go into details because I might be wrong, I am unsure about those medical terms. Right after that my mom and I talked and I told mom that as long as Daddy give us a yes we will do everything.

I get back into Dad and explain him that we will be doing a procedure to make him strong again but I would need to asked if its okay because if it's not we cannot risk you. Dad give me tears and I told him "Daddy as long as you keep on fighting we will fight with you!"