You are my Battle

Chapter 4

You are probably confused about why he did that right? Okay, this chapter is am explanation chapter (if we can say that?). Oh also I'm sorry if some sentences aren't good or I made typos :)
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"YOU DISGUST ME!" I screamed with tears falling on my cheeks that became red from anger.

"Katy?!" He looked at me, confused and surprised. "Thats... That's not what you think! I, I just-"

"OH WHAT?! YOU WERE JUST FUCKING REALLY HARD THIS SLUT IN MY OWN BED?!" I screamed louder. I breathed trying to control my anger. "You better enjoyed it because I'm going to make sure you can never use your thing again!" I said disgusted.

Anger, disgust and sadness were the only feelings into me at this moment.
I don't understand... I don't understand. How can he does this to me? I thought he loved me, I thought I was enough but that's definitely not true. For years he made sure any other men will come at me, he didn't want me to talk with other men and he does that? Maybe am I the problem? I didn't care enough, I wasn't enough...

"Why you did this to me Dylan?" I said, tears were falling harder than ever. I didn't understand.

"Why I did that? Why I did that? Because I wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt me." He said with sadness in his eyes.

"What? But what did I do?" I was confused.

"Oh please! Don't act like you did nothing wrong!" He laughed bitterly.

"I don't understand Dylan!"

"Oh, it's not like you didn't cheat on me with... that... John!" When he pronounced his name, we could see the disgust in his eyes.

"WHAT?! I never cheated on you!" I was lost.

"I saw you with him today. Oh you thought I will never know it! You told me you were going to the studio so I go check if you were here and, surprise! you weren't! Oh!" He faked a smile.

Everything was clear now. It was all my fault. I lied to him and I never should do this. He just wanted to protect me and he loved me so much that he didn't want something that would make me look at someone else. I broke his trust. This is my fault.

"You cheated on me, I cheat on you. That's as simple as that." He put in pant on and took his shirt. The other girl was already gone while we were arguing. "I broke up." He looked into my eyes while he walked passed me and gone.

I was standing here in front of the door where the love of my life closed few seconds ago, without looking back.

I scrolled down on the floor, crying like I never did. I put my head in my hands and cried more and more.

I was devastated.

Suddenly, someone knocked at the front door. I wasn't going to open it. I don't want to see anybody, I want to be alone... forever.

The person knocked again, I looked at the door.

"Katy? This is John. You forgot your sunglasses!" The voice said through the door.

I wiped my tears, get up and looked in the mirror. Does it look like I cried? I hope he will not see it.

I walked to the front door and opened it.

"Hi!" John smiled.

"Hi, thanks for the sunglasses." I took the sunglasses from his hands and was about to close the door.

"Are you okay, Katy?" He said worried.

"Yeah, why I would not be okay?" I laughed weakly.

"You look sad." He came closer.

"I'm fine" I couldn't hold the tears no more. I tried to hide a tear.

"Katy you cry." He caressed my cheek and wiped the tear. "What happened?"

"Nothing." I looked at my feet and slowly pushed him away.

"Katy I don't like to see you sad, I don't want you to be sad. I know you are not okay Katy." He said.

A tear, two tears then it was more then ten tears that were falling.
John came closer and put his arms around my shoulders and caressed my hair slowly. He didn't say a word when we finally go sitting on the couch.

"Take this." He showed me a mug with a hot chocolate in it.

"Thank you." I whispered and drank a little bit. "Dylan cheated on me." I keep staring at the chocolate in the mug.

He looked at me and didn't say a word. I guess he didn't know what to say.

"Um... Why he did that?" He scratched his neck.

"He wanted to 'hurt me as much as I hurt him' " I remember his voice saying these words.

"Did you hurt him?" He asked as confused as I was.

"I guess?" I looked at him. "I lied to him to see you and he thought I cheated on him..." I looked down and continued "with you."

JOHN POV

She just looked as confused as I was and she looked so sad, it breaks my heart. How can you break this little heart? Look at her, she looks so innocent and pure. At this moment, she is as weak as a baby bird abandoned by his mother. I want to hug her and protect her until she can fly by her own again.

"I lied to him because before we had to meet but he didn't want me to see you so I told you I couldn't see you and then I decided to see you even if he doesn't agree. So I lied. I told him I was going to the studio for some stuffs and so he checked to see if I was there and of course, I wasn't. So he thought I was cheating on him with you." She explained me, still holding her hot chocolate I gave her.

I put my arms around her, I was so sorry for her. I thought that doesn't say anything was better so I just watched her fell asleep in my arms.