In thought maybe i could be happy, maybe I could finally let go and stop worrying so much, I thought maybe finally things would start going my way and I could enjoy my life and relax. But sadly I cannot and there is simply no point in bothering to put on a fake smile just to comfort you because I can't anymore I have given up completely and utterly. Seven years of my worthless life given to fake smiles and fake laughter and secretly dying inside. No more, I cant find joy and happiness and the fun in things. Maybe I could have my happily ever after where I could finally have someone to hold me someone to love me someone to be afraid of losing me and that's all I ever wanted, but instead I got beaten down and laughed at.
