Love Inks

Love Inks ~ Chapter Two

   "Don't be so rough," Evan muttered. I still had his arms pinned down above his head. What did he think? That I was going to immediately ease up on my game? No way, I was on a fucking roll. 

   "No," I answered. I was too busy to say anything else. His lips were so soft, and his tongue  played right along with mine. 

   "Fine then."

   As I was tugging off his belt, something clicked. This was not how I planned to have sex for the first time in California. It might sound a tad bit silly, but I wanted something meaningful. I didn't want a stupid fling. I wanted a good, strong relationship.

   I teetered on the edge of going for it and quitting while I was ahead. Half of me wanted to get that high, but the other half was telling that half to stop; to stop and think. I had gotten myself into trouble. Now it was time to pull myself out.

   I jerked away from him. He stared up at me in surprise, but there was understanding in his eyes. I took a deep breath and crawled off him. I rubbed my lips dry. My face was flushed and I could feel my cheeks getting hotter. Evan sat up, wrapping his arms around his knees. I felt his eyes burning into the side of my head. I didn't want to turn and face him. It was silly to be honest. But I'd gotten myself too deep and I wanted nothing more than to be in my own house. In my room, and in my beloved bed. Alone.

   "You alright?" Evan asked. He studied my face when I turned to look at him. 

   I nodded and said, "Yeah, I'm fine. I'm sorry, Evan. It's just-"

  He waved a hand in front of himself. Waving the thought away like an annoying bee. "I completely understand. I, uh, I get it."

   I breathed a sigh of relief. Evan smiled at me and jumped down from the counter. Then said, "I guess we'd better get you home, huh?"

   I nodded my headed. "Yeah," I breathed. 

   The car ride was awkward to say the least. But it wasn't as awkward as it could have been. Evan walked me to the door, then hugged me. It was more a friendly hug more than anything, but I could still feel that pull. He still seemed, I don't know... Disappointed maybe? I really don't know, and it's not my place to say either.

   I locked the door behind me. Needless to say, I was glad to be home. I sludged up the stairs, then slipped out of my clothes. My back and feet were sore from standing up for so long during the day. I was tired and too sleepy to change into any pajamas so I snuggled under the covers. As always, my mind was too stubborn to shut off and I laid awake for hours. My mind going through every thought possible. 

   I wasn't stressed about Harry coming, that was the farthest thing from my mind. My mind decided to linger on my wild make out session with possibly one of the hottest men alive. How could I have been such an idiot? Part of me says that I should have just taken a chance and fucked him. The other part says that I should have not even kissed back; that I should've stopped it sooner.

    But no, I'm stupid. I can't ever make up my mind. My indecisive brain had begun to drive me crazy. I don't know if I belong on a mental institution or if I need a week's worth of sleep. 

   That's it. That's all I need. 

   Sleep. 

   But that's the thing though, I can't sleep. No matter how hard I try, I can't. 

   I stood up. Made my way down stairs in the dark, and fixed myself a glass of water. After drinking that, I once again attempted to fall asleep. 

   This time I wasn't just lying there and thinking, I was doing fucking cart wheels. At least, that's what it felt like. I finally gave up. It was no use. I wasn't going to get any sleep anyway. I stared up at the ceiling until I saw the first shade of light. 

    I sluggishly sat up. I arched my back and heard it pop. I could already tell that today was going to be just jolly. I stood up. My feet immediately began to hurt. Ignoring the pain, I walked to my window. People were already on their way to work, or on their way home from work. Streets were already busy and packed with people. All in a some kind of hurry.

   I soon got bored with watching the world. I tried to find a book or a movie to keep my mind of last night. I stopped flipping through the pages of some tabloid when I realized that Evan would be there today. Whenever someone huge was coming in he was there. That someone huge was Harry. Evan would definitely be there.

   I threw the magazine down and ran a hand through my hair. "Awesome, just awesome." 

   Let the awkwardness begin.

   NO SEX FOR ISLA!!! HAHAHAHAHA REVENGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously though, love you guys. xoxo I wanted it to be longer but you know how that goes. :) bye

   -Aiden