Me And The Bad Boy

Do I Like Him?

I woke up into a hard chest. I opened my eyes, and smiled. I studied Justin's face for a couple minutes.
"If you want to kiss me, just ask kitten." Justin said, as I nearly hit my head on the bed, because he startled me. He burst out into laughter, while I gave him a death glare. I started punching him on the chest to make him stop laughing. My punches obviously didn't work because I was way to weak. I layed my hand on his chest, to try another way to make him stop laughing. After I rolled onto his chest, to make me on top of him, I couldn't help myself. He immediately stopped laughing. I grinded up against him. And I could feel his friend, poke against my thigh. He grabbed a hold of me, which shocked me, and he pressed his lips into mine. The fact that he done this was not what shocked me, what shocked me is that I wanted it just as bad. He kissed my lips hungrily. As I did the same. He rolled me over to make him on top of me. I gasped when I felt his weight on me, and that gave him the chance to enter my mouth, and let his tongue  investigate my mouth. We moved in sync and it all felt so good. When I remembered that he was a player. I pulled away, but instantly regretted it. I wanted to feel more of his lips on mine. I see why girls fall to his feet.
"What, what's wrong?" Justin said.
"N-nothing it's just I don't really want to go farther, you know a-after what happened y-yesterday." Now that I said that, I was thinking that it was true, I didn't want to have sex after I got raped in a janitors closet. But I was craving his lips so bad.
Thats because you like him.
Do you ever get those voices inside your head that you also talk too, that you feel like your going crazy? Yeah that's what is happening to me.
'Do not' I told that voice.
Do too, admit it that you like him.
'But I don't'
But you do
'No'
Yes.
'Noooo, no, no,no I don't like Justin'
Yes!
I stopped arguing with myself, for two reasons. 1) because I think that I am just going insane. 2) I think that voice is actually right, even though I don't want it to be. I started getting back to reality when I noticed that Justin was starring at me, like I had a huge pimple on my face and he didn't want to say anything mean.
"Um, Melissa? Are you ok?" Justin said.
"Yeah I was just thinking about what h-happened yesterday."
Lies.
'You know what shut up'
"Um, I didn't say anything." Justin said.
"Oh God, did I say that out loud!?" I can't believe I did that.
"Yeah you kinda did." Justin said.

*how did you guys like my story so far..? Was this chapter good? Cuz i thought it was pretty bad. This is the first book that I wrote, well that I liked and continued with. *
Xoxo,
Kayla