A Dream Is A Dream

I want

I woke up at 2:05 rejoiced and happy. Until I felt the urge to feel it again. I rolled over and tried to reach for it. I got my hand on it and stuck it in. Louise felt it go in and he sighed a sigh of joy and relief.

He started sucking on my neck, but I pulled back. "I don't want 2 hickeys." I said. It was still in when I realized the condom wasn't on it. I started to freak out. I searched around for the small plastic, and felt it. It had slipped off. I got up and went to the bathroom and found the pregnancy tester I had brought with me. I tested. Positive. No. No no no no no! I went out and showed him.

He smiled "yay!" He said and hugged me. "Stop celebrating! I don't want to be a teenage mother! I want to have a boyfriend! I don't want to get married yet!"

He looked sad. "We have to tell everyone."

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Everyone had been informed now. Even the press. I was too nervous to talk to anyone. So I sat in the corner. How would my parents handle this? My biggest concern was that Kay and Am might get jealous and want their own baby. I don't want that to happen!

{_____five months later_____}

We went into the doctors office to see if it was a girl of boy. I really wanted it to be a girl so that I could teach her everything! Like painting nails, and about guys, and makeup, and what happens when TOM comes. I just want her to be beautiful and talented. I want her to be able to do the stuff I never could. But I don't want her to be like me in some ways. I don't want her to have sex like me and become a teenage mother. But she will live the life of being famous! It will be amazing.

But if it was a boy it would be okay because there would be less drama and I'm sure Louise would want a boy over a girl so that would make him happy. I would get to see what it was like having a younger boy, because I was always the young child and by the time I could remember and recognize all the stuff guys do was with my brother around 5th grade. When I was in 2nd. And I want to see how they act when younger, not just on TV. I want to teach him to be a good boy and not do what his father did to a girl. And what if he has a voice?

I would really take either one.

We went into the examination room and I sat on the bed. The doctor came in to examine, but he didn't see anything. What was going on? I figured the tool must have been broken. "Mam, it appears that you have a miscarriage." I looked to Louise. Oh my.

We drove home with a sad mood. We went through some cries and decided to tell everyone.

Every one met up at our room. "Um, we have called you all here to tell you something." I wanted to make it serious, but it was hard to hold it in. Louise continued. He rubbed my belly. "Our little one has been a..." He paused. "Girl!?"Am and Kay shouted. "Guy!?" Niall and Harry shouted. "Extra Terrestrial!?" Zayn and Liam shouted in sync. "Please!" Zayn mumbled under his breath. Every one laughed. We looked towards each other. "A miscarriage."We both said.

Every one's face expression changed from happy to sad. I couldn't help it. I broke the silence by crying.

I thought I didn't want a baby! Before I was upset I got pregnant! But now everything has changed. After I thought I was bringing someone into this world. It just isn't gonna happen.

But everyone was there for me and Lou. Even the press. They announced the miscarriage and everyone was saying sorry and it was really sweet.

That night I slept naked again in bed with Louise. He lifted the covers to get in and saw me undressed. "Wanna try again?" He asked. "Yes. After. After you propose and we get married. After we wait a little so I'm not a pregnant mother. After." So he got in with his clothes on. "Then why are you naked?" He asked. "I want to cuddle. And I want the rush. It's safe with a condom on. We just have to promise to make sure it stays on and we don't get carried away." So he got out of bed, took his clothes off, slipped the condom on, and got back in bed. I could see his boner. He took his dic and shoved it up my vagina.

"Mmmmm..." I said. I felt the rush. I saw him lick his lips. He felt it too. I'm glad we were both happy after this big issue.

I just wanted to marry him. So bad.