Alone, Sad, DepressedA Luke Hemmings sad imagine

Part 1

Tamara's P.O.V

I remember the last time I saw Luke Robert Hemmings like it was yesterday. The tears running down his face, the blood on his face and most importantly, the disappointment in his eyes everytime he looked at me.

*1 YEAR AGO*

"I cant believe you've done this again. You promised me and Ashton, Calum and Micheal you would never hurt yourself again!!" He shouted.

"Its not that easy Luke! You know what I've been through and lately you haven't been there for me! I tried so many times to ask for help but you didn't have time!" I cried.

"My mums ill Tamara! She has cancer and she could die any minute! So I'm sorry if I'm not there giving you all this attention! Maybe I haven't spent enough money on getting you present lately!" He said.

My face dropped to the floor.

"I cant believe you actually think this is because you didn't spend money on me! Its not Luke! I know about your mum and I know your worried about her but you can't push everyone else away!" I shouted.

This caused Micheal, Calum and Ashton to come downstairs.

"I need some air" Luke whispered whilst turning to walk out the door.

"If you walk away from me Luke don't bother coming back! If you leave I never wanna see your face again!" I screamed.

He paused for a second, and the room was silent.

"I'm sorry" he apologised before walking out the door.

I collapsed in tears on the floor, clutching my wrists and fighting the urge to run past the boys and finish what I started.

Maybe this time I should cut a lot deeper.

"Don't even think about it" Micheal said, all three boys standing around me blocking me from getting upstairs.

"Help me!" I begged.

Calum threw his arms around me and I sobbed into his shoulder.

"We're gonna go look for Luke" Ashton said.

Him and Micheal both left.

"Come on" Calum said offering his hand to help me of the floor.

"Where are we going?" I said, wiping the tears from around my eyes.

"We're going to get food" Calum demanded.

"What about Luke?" I replied, taking his hand and standing up.

"Micheal and Ashton will find him, calm him down and by the time we get back he'll be here" He explained.

I nodded. Although I'm angry and upset, I need to eat.

*PRESENT DAY*

But if I knew that the note which was placed on my bed could of stopped luke from leaving, I never would of gone with Calum....