one shots

-letters to you-

To my beautiful girlfriend Skye Turner,

It's been a full week since I last saw you and everyday that I fall asleep without you by my side is getting harder. Zack and Alexia have sent me to a therapist because they think I'm not coping, truthfully I'm not.

Brianna, the therapist, has given me a journal to write in. she explained that i was supposed to write about what I thought about and because your all I think about, I decided to write to you. She makes me give her the journal at least once a week, so I am well aware she'll read this.

Skye I can't believe how blind I was I was suppose to help you, not let you go. I'm so sorry I didn't see what was happening sooner.

That day,  I can remember exactly what happened every time I think of you all I see is you hanging from the ceiling beams in the attic.

It hurts Skye, it hurts.

Day one:

When I woke up you were meant to be curled up beside me like you always are, but you weren't. Still at the time I wasn't worried I mean you could have been out with your friends.

When I called your phone and I heard it ringing from the room above. I was confused, you never leave your phone at home.

After numerous attempts of trying to open the door and so many wild thoughts of what you had done. I broke, I couldn't stand, I ended up calling Zack and Alexia. after that I passed out.

Day two:

Alexia and I stayed at Zack's house last night all we did was cry and sleep. They are all beating themselves up over it when it really was all my fault. If I had payed more attention to you, you wouldn't have felt the way you did.

I found your letter last night. After they took your body, our friends helped me clean the attic, they were both crying after they read each of theirs. I haven't exactly stopped crying yet but I'm trying because I know that wouldn't want me to. But it's difficult Skye I miss you way to much. 

Day three:

At the trip to Brianna, she took my book and reread what I wrote, she told me that it's not helping but right now nothing is. I miss you Skye and no one could ever replace what we had. We started talking about some other things like my future I had planned and I told her my biggest secret. I was going to propose I had been to the jewellers and got our wedding rings custom made they both had a little inscription on them. Yours said 'Forever?' and mine said 'Always' meaning we would their will always be a forever with us. I loved you. heck! I still love you.

All I know is that I miss you and I know that nothing I do can bring you back. The autopsy results have come back and it says that you died of strangling and blood loss, which I already knew. But I should have realised what you were planning when you brought home the rope for 'gardening' as you put it.

Day four:

Today Alexia and Zack took me out and we went to the park. What they didn't know was that's were we first met.

Remember that evening? You were with your little sister, Charlotte, at the park and you were playing soccer. My neice wanted to play to so she went over and asked, you being the kind hearted person you are said yes and sat down on the bench. I sat down next to you and we started talking. When Sophie had finally had enough we exchanged numbers and I walked home.

Thank you for so many memories. I love you for that Skye.

Anyway back to today, I just fell on the ground and started crying they were confused but Zack just carried me home.