Preface
Losing him was like losing apart of my self, I couldn’t do the things I usually did without him on my mind. He was my everything and with him only as a friend surely would not due. He made me who I was today I cant bare to see another day without him by my side. He means the world to me.
It was two days before a new year started, ill admit it my last year at Hernando Middle school was very exciting since I would be graduating from the eight grade. Of course I’m excited but then there’s the stupid butterflies you would get right before the big day. Just thinking about it is giving me the butterflies . I just hope this year is a fun and memorable year for me. I was walking into another year with an okay attitude because no matter what life through at me I was going to have to phase no matter if I liked it or not. After everything that ive been through I have learned not to look for love, that one day the one your suppose to be with will be worth the wait. Here it is already eight grade and I say I’m already done with love, well doesn’t that just sound crazy? In middle school you shouldn’t even know what love is or even be worrying about boys. Only if middle schooler’s still believed that boys had cooties they would save themselves the heartache at such a young age. I guess what I’m trying to say was back in the six grade was when all this talk about love started forming for me, My past is not something I’ am proud of I mean its not like I did anything wrong or anything but six grade was when I thought I was in love with a boy that couldn’t give a shit about me. I was blinded by the thought of love and for the next two years I was miserable Since I fell for a rocker named Damien Owens. I’m sitting on my bed thinking about my previous years Since I’ am now about to enter another year and I’m trying to decide how I can change it? My past two Years was sure something interesting. When I started thinking about six grade I still couldn’t believe that the one guy I actually trusted with my heart would break it? Damien Owens Broke my heart several of times During this year and still to this day I don’t understand why he did it? Why he couldn’t be honest with me and let me know why he did it? I mean if you games with their heart its immature and childish. Damien has lied and cheated on me so many times that every time my friends would tell me hes doing it I wouldn’t believed them. The reason why I wouldn’t believe them was because every time I would hear something I would rush off to damien, and every time he would say the same thing “ no there lieing” or “ babe im not” something like that was always being said. Until one day he broke and tore my heart and I couldn’t take it anymore. I found out the truth and it tore me apart. Damien was the first guy I had did anything with or had attempted or gotten close to do anything with. Now of course he was more experienced and more advanced in these things I mean come on now im only in sixth grade no one should know about these things at all. So of course im Going to believe everything that came out of his mouth or anything he said because there was that cosmic pull between us at one point in time. The sad thing was after a year and two months I found out he was playing me , a year and two months of my time wasted on someone that never loved me , that lied to my face that always wanted someone better then me but still ended up being with me.
