love affairs

Chapter 4

We sat there in a froyo shop. Nate was putting toppings on his and I was sitting at a table devouring my froyo masterpiece.

"What flavors did you get?" I asked as he walked towards the table.

"Don't judge me haha. I got cookies n creme, cake batter, and strawberry. But my killer toppings of oreos, strawberries and cookie dough make up for my weak flavors hahah," he said taking a spoonfull of what seemed to be cake batter. "How 'bout you?"

"Okay, don't judge me haha. I got the same, except I added gummy worms to my toppings," I said giggling and taking a bit of a gummy.

"You're the one that took the last worms! Jerk," he chuckled as he stole a gummy worm from me. I didn't mind though.

We sat there making small talk for about 30 minutes as we finished our froyo. When I was done he got up and threw my cup away along with his own. We walked outside and headed to his car. He had a black mustang, and I must say, it's beautiful. I leaned against his door and he stood in front of me.

"I'm glad you agreed to let me take you out ... um, hang out. Sorry," he said. "Don't even trip, no worries," I replied with a grin. "I hope this makes up for last week. That wasn't anywhere near the impression I wanted to have on you. I just, I wanted you to like me. But then I got you in trouble with Matt and, yeah. I'm sorry," he said staring down at his feet. "Ay, nothing to be sorry about. I'd probably still like you if you accidently spilled beer all over me or something haha," I confessed. "So you like me, huh?" he asked, with a smirk. "Well, uh um I mean I -"

I was lost in my thoughts. I had no idea how to reply.

Nate leaned in close, one hand on the roof of the car, one hand on my waist. He hovered over me, I could feel and hear him breathing on me. Fuck, it sounded hot. I looked up, biting my lip. I didn't mean to tease, it's just a nervous habit I have. He removed his hand from my waist and moved it up to my jaw. He lifted my chin with his finger and pulled me into him. His lips softly touched mine. I felt his lips push out and I kissed back. He slowly pulled my face in closer, causing the kiss to be even more passionate. He bit on to my bottom lip and I let out a gasp. He softly nibbled and sucked on my lip, before licking. I granted his tongue entrance and I was instantly on my toes. His tongue explored every inch of my mouth with ease. He retracted his tongue and kept pushing his lips into mine. He moved his hand up to the back of my head and grasped onto my hair. He pulled back and I was breathless. I took a deep breath of air and tried to collect some sense of what had just happened.

He looked at me and bit his lip. His eyes were full of wonder and lust. "Nate, I ... I don't ... I ..." I was speechless.

He just chuckled. He then spoke and said, "Baby, wake up."

I looked at him with confusion. "I'm sorry, what?"

"Baby, wake up. Baaaby, wake uuuuup."

I woke up to Matt lightly rubbing my arm. "You fell to sleep. C'mon, let's go upstairs to bed sweetie," he said as he grabbed my hands and pulled me up.

I sat up so confused, and upset. It scared me how much I wished that dream was real. It felt so real. I could feel his soft lips against mine, which is quite ironic because well, I'venever felt his lips before.

I stood up and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I splashed some water on my face, then stared at the time; 4:57 AM.

"C'mon baby, let's go to bed," Matt begged.

I walked towards him and interlocked my fingers between his. We walked up stairs to our bedroom. He pulled off the covers for me, and we both crawled into bed. Our sheets felt cool and fresh. Matt scooted up close to me and hugged me.

"I love you so much. Please, don't ever forget that. I know things hadn't been so good between us but, I never want to lose you. I want to be with you the rest of my life. There is not a second that I'd ever want to be without you. You are my reason to live Kailani, and I hope you stick by my side for a long time," Matt confessed. I didn't know how to respond. I just layed there for a few seconds trying to gather myself.

"I love you too Matthew, I really do," was all I replied. He kissed my nose, then shut his eyes to fall to sleep. Within seconds he was fast asleep.

About half an hour of just listening to the sound of his cute little snores, I got up. It was clear I wasn't falling back to sleep. I had too much on my mind. I made my way to the living room to check my phone. I still had the 3 missed calls and voicemails from Sammy and Nate, but now I also had 5 text messages.

I locked my phone without checking the messages to make some tea for myself. Once it was done, I poured myself a cup, grabbed my phone, and went outside to sit on the patio. I took a few sips before setting the cup down to read the messages.

I had two texts from my mom, one from my dad, one from Sammy, and one from Nate.

Birth giver 👼 : hey baby, hope you're doing well! just wanted to check in, call me later. love you.

Birth giver 👼 : dork, call me! i miss you, and so does your dad!

Dad ☺️ : hey honey, give us a call sometime soon okay. we miss u

wilkinson 💯💖 : hey lil mama, don't mean to bug you but give me a call back okay. i got stuff to tell ya.

(562)123-4567 : hey, it's nate. don't mean to be a bother but um if it's cool w you, i'd like to take you out sometime next weekend? lemme know please.

I texted my parents back with a quick "sorry, busy day! i'll call you later 💖." I knew they wouldn't answer since it was only about 5:30 in the morning. I texted Sammy back too "yo, sorry! date night w my BOYFRIEND. i'll call you up later though."

I sat there for a while trying to think of what i'd answer Nate. Since I couldn't decide, I decided to listen to the voicemails.

"You have 3 new voice messages.

Voice message 1
Hey lil mama, it's me Sam. I know what I said earlier sounded a bit harsh but uh just let me explain things to you okay. Give me a call back and hopefully we can see each other tomorrow.
Voice message 2
Yo, K. Please don't be mad, I didn't mean to I don't know, hurt you or anything? Come over tomorrow please, the door's always open for you.
Voice message 3
Yo Sam, I don't know what it is but damn she's something special.
Well yeah, she's fucking hot. She's a baddie.
No no no, she's stunning. You've got it all wrong, she's just so breathtaking. I hate that I'm so into a girl who's taken but shit man, she's something else. Fuck, pass it man. I need a hit.
Here. Yo, why is your phone lit up?
What the fuck? Oh shit.

To replay, press 1. To delete, press 7."

I sat there speechless. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to call Nate back and just admit to him that the feelings were very much mutual but, at the same time I knew that wasn't the right decision. It was 5:30 AM now; I decided to go sit on the roof and watch the sunrise. It was my favorite thing to do, even though I never did it.

I climbed up there and watched the sunrise. I was trying to think of what to do but I couldn't process any logical ideas. I really wanted to call Nate back, or at least call Sammy but I knew if I did I'd make a bigger mess out of this situation. Dammit. I need a blunt.

I climbed down and jumped in the shower downstairs. I didn't want Matt to wake up since I was gonna go over to Sammys' place and talk to Emily. Emily has had to have known Nate since he was a baby so maybe she'll be able to help me with this mess. God knows I've fucked shit up enough. I don't need to make this worse. Let's see how this goes.

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Okay, super sorry for the late update but I had horrible writers block! But i'm over it now which is good lol. i'll try to update again by next saturday ((-: