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Bad relationships

When you tell people that every relationship you ever had was bad that is a red flag. Not everyone treats you like a peace of trash. We all have those times when we get played by people or that string of bad relationships or the innocence of learning how the world works but come on. There had to be one person in your sorry messed up life who was good to you. That one person who held the door, that you probably ignored because you where in your own little messed up world. Let's take a reality check I know I have not had the worst life. Yes my relationships have not been the best and yes I always try to find the good in people and that has hurt me a time or 15 but I have only been married once at the age of 24 I have one child and I am looking for mr right and taking my time with it. Don't go for mr right now. That will bring you pain it can take years for a personality to come out and some addicts can hide it for a wile but each situation is different however if you have had bad relationships and maybe a failed marriage or 5 think for a minute how well you knew them what changed. Did you marry after a month a year or 3 or 7. Did you have to change for that person or them for you. Did they lose a job and you wanted more money or did you just say hey I don't love you anymore. Responsibility in our personal life is a big player in how our relationships go we need to take responsibility and be around people who do the same.

You say you hate drama but all your friends do is gossip. You lie or you cut out those people. I hate drama myself. There are people I work with who all they do is talk bad about people and spread lies. I say hi at work let them talk and it ends with me. I forget what they say to me because they are not trustworthy or worth my time or brain power. They think I am their best friend and to them I guess I am but they are not mine. You have to prioritize your life or you will never get out from under yourself.

I was with this guy and things where great between us. Then his roommate started drama we don't even know why she was mad. Turns out that people found out about us and said something to her about me. We don't know if this set her off or something else but I don't work like that. I am not with him anymore because that is drama I don't need.

Drama equals stress and stress leads to health problems. I want to be as healthy as I can so keep your drama you can have it. You can keep the heart disease and stress and all that bad stuff that drama is linked with. I will write about drama watch it and laugh at the stupid things people get upset about but when I write i try to make it real not unnecessary bs that everyone tries to pull these days.

Remember you are who you want to be if you don't like it change yourself for you if you have to cut somebody out because they are not good for you then do it don't let others bring you down. Don't stay in a bothersome job just because your friends are there if you can do better then do it. Make up your own mind you are the only one who knows what is best for you.

BUT REMEMBER love is a choice not just the fuzzy feeling. When you commit to someone for life then it is up to the pair that commits to make the daily choices and sacrifices for the best of the unit. When there is abuse then there is the right to walk but do you really want to give up on the last however many years just because you think someone better is out there. Try communication and if after forever of that there is no change then determine if it is a livable thing (like you will be the only one vacuuming unless you have kids) or a no livable thing (like an abusive drunk) and say to yourself do I have to leave or can I live with this.

In short we are the only one that can change us and no not everyone is a horrible jerk to you the person you are complaining to and crying on their shoulders yeah that one is probably really nice to you.

End of rant for now y'all have a great semester if you are in school or last quarter for you workers out there.

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