when I have an anxiety attack,
I was just laying there. Heart slowly begins to pick up rate. Heart rate increases to the speed of someone running a 5k. My left arm started to shake rapidly, my hand soon following. Take a couple deep breaths. Feel my throat feel like it's on fire. Stomach turning. Acid coming up my throat. The need to vomit but not having the ability to, so nausea sets in. Arm continues to shake off and on. Still breathing, now in counts of 4. Heart still beating like a runner. Head spinning and turn dizzy. Roll over onto side and feel the acid move further up my throat. Sit up too quickly and see black for a few seconds. Drink some water, only a sip, then lie back down. Stay there shaking until it passes. Having the overwhelming feeling of a constant fear and anxiousness. Fear leads to more anxiety. Feeling anxious and mind clouds to anxious thoughts. My stomach does circles. Heart beat never really returns to normal until I finally fall asleep.
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