PS. The guy in the pic is Gemma's brother
Gemmas' POV
I sat there in my queen size bed with black roses and blue flames spread rapping and fitting it perfectly, 5 am that morning thinking "What did I do?" "Why did he save me?" "Why didn't I just die?" It would have been so much easier for me….. For everyone
Flashback
As usual my parents were arguing about who's cheating on whom and whose fault I was born. Obviously not knowing it’s the same reason there fighting now –drinking. By this time I was crying in my sponge bob Pjs in my room with bunny decorations every were, under my little princess covered bed when my dad barged in my room looking for me "GEMMA!!" he shouted sounding really tipsy. "Where are you sweetie?" his voice getting deeper as he spoke.
By then I was sobbing really loud, he heard and rushed under the bed grabbing me. "AAAHHHHH!!!!"
Flashback Finish
"It's your first day of school sis" my brother Drew said coming into my room interrupting my rather unpleasant thoughts. "Why are you up so early?" he whined wearing a t-shirt that says 'can't you see me sleeping' and his grey boxers with smiley faces all over it. And now I can’t help but smile before I remember it all again.
I don't think I should tell him that I was thinking about mom and dad again 'cause the last time he spent the entire day with me not leaving my side only to use the bathroom and for some reason I’m like an open book to him, he just easily figures me out. "Thinking" I whispered as I cuddled up to my night gown that says ‘Get your ass to bed’. We practically make the prints for almost all our clothing.
I totally forgot that I had school this morning. I looked up at him not knowing that there were tears in my eyes, about to answer his question when he came and sat beside me rapping his long muscular arms around me. “Thinking about mom and dad aren’t you?" he asked and I couldn’t trust myself to talk or I’d probably break down. "It’s gonna be alright Gem I’m right here and I won’t be leaving" he smiled and planted a kiss on my temple.
"Can I ask you something?" I asked shivering at the thoughts that lingered in my memories.
"Yeah sure babe!" he smiled as he turned to face me.
"Why did you save me? W-why didn't you l- let me fall? now he's – he’s still out..." I stopped as I buried my head between my knees and cried.
"How could you ask me that Gemma? You're my little sis, my best friend. Why wouldn't I? Before you were born dad and I were never close and mom never had time for me. I thought that when you came it would be worst but instead it was different. Even though you were very small you were always there for me. When I would cry you would cry too. When I was down you would come with one of your toys and play with me to try and cheer me up. You would be the one to keep me smiling and out of trouble and believe it or not safe. Your first steps were to me and the third word you spoke was my name, even if you didn't pronounce it good at first you still called for me and came to my rescue in your little cow girl hat. So why wouldn’t I wanna return the favour?" he asked shaking his head as I looked up at him drying my tears with the palm of my hand and the smile shun in his eyes "You saved me Gemma and don’t think I won’t love you for it"
I sprang at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and cried into the crook of his neck "I love you too Drew. I love you so much" I wept as he accepted my tears in his hug.
"Now can I ask you something?" he spoke up through the thick curls of my hair which sounded as if he had it in his mouth.
"Yeah" I asked pulling back and feeling for saliva.
