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Family issues

It was 2014..... My parents wanted to separate because they always fighted. So my dad wanted to keep the house. My mom wanted to move to LA. So my mom and dad came up to my room when I was crying because they were fighting. They said Nicole are u ok and I said does it look like I am ok do u see me crying my eyes out? And they said yes we do. Your father and I want to talk to you about something. And I said what? They said that they were going to separate and your dad is going to keep the house and I am going to move to a new house and we were wondering were u wanted to live with. You would see me or your father on vacations. That was when I wanted to kill my self right in front of them with a knife. I did not answer at all. They said we will give you a couple of days to figure it out. And I said nothing. They left my room and started fighting again. I was crying in my room for hours until I got tired and went to bed.
The next morning I went to eat some cereal and bring it up in my room. I was thinking about were I should live with and I did not know who I was thinking about my dad because we could do adventures and have fun with each other. And on the other end I was thinking about my mom because I am a girl and she is a girl and my body is going to change and I would need to talk to a girl about it I think it would be every weird if I talked to my dad and told him I got my period and it would not be very weird to tell my mom and me and my mom would go shopping and get cute clothes together. So I was thinking about where I should live and a couple of hours later I thought I should live with....... My MOM because I thought that would be the best thing to do so I went to my mom when she was not near my dad at all and said mom I think I want to stay with u because my body is going to change and it would be very weird to tell dad that I got my period and she said that is a good example to live with me. So my mom said do u want me to tell your dad or do u want to tell your dad? And I said I want you to because I think it would be emotional to tell him about it. My mom said I will darling with a big smile.