Alexandria's life journey

Comfort and new people

A/N:picture above is Tyler

Two days later the doctor and nurses force me out of my room to go eat with the rest of the kids that are here; which surprised me. Normally they wouldn't want me around the other kids. They were always saying I was a danger to them and myself. I don't understand how I was a danger to the other kids here. I mean I know why or how I'm a danger to myself but to them I'm not going to hurt them I can't even go near them without being reminded of my past. So here I am right outside the cafeteria door listening to all the loud chatter. I close my eyes and take a deep breath, let it out after a bit then open the door and step inside.

Just as I thought, the moment I stepped inside everyone became  quiet and stared at me. Even here I wasn't wanted. This doesn't surprise me. I'm not wanted in my own home, what makes here any different? While I thought about this, a tall boy came skipping over to me with a bright smile plastered on his face. He had bright ruby hair and sky blue eyes that were so bright, that if you looked into them for too long it seemed as if you could get lost in them.  My thoughts were jumbled but only one escaped my mind "Why is he coming over here?"

"Hi! I'm Tyler!" he said enthusiastically and held out his hand for me to shake. I looked down at it and backed away quickly. I'm still not comfortable with touching people and them touching me, and I doubt I ever will be. Tyler looked at me, shocked and confused, until realization crossed his face. "Oh... I'm so sorry I didn't know, I was just hoping you would come sit with me and my friends. We'd really like it if you would join us." he said, taking a step back and putting his hand back at his side to show that he wouldn't try to touch me again.

To say I was shocked that someone was even talking to me, let alone asking me to sit with them is a complete understatement. Even though Tyler is being really nice to me it doesn't change anything. I'm still not going to talk to anyone, but I wasn't going to be mean either. After all he is the only one who is talking to me and not gawking. I nodded my head and gestured for him to lead the way. He smiled even bigger and swiftly turned on his heel and strode across the room to a table with two other people sitting there. As we reached the table everyone resumed talking like nothing happened.

The two people sitting at the table looked up and I realized they were both guys and very good looking ones at that. I could feel a sudden heat rise up my face and cover my cheeks. They both looked shocked to see me standing here at their table. I thought they wanted me to sit with them, well that's what Tyler said anyways. "Wow.. Tyler you actually got her to come sit with us; I'm surprised" the older looking one said.

The older boy has medium length baby blue hair and blue-green eyes. Tyler shrugged and sat down motioning for me to sit next to him. I didn't want to sit so close to him. Despite how nice he has been that wasn't going to change anything. So I sat a seat away from him.

The youngest looking boy out of all three looked at me like I was crazy and asked "What's wrong with you?" Tyler and the older boy gasped and smacked him yelling "Kyle!!" The older boy looked at him and said "You can't just ask someone that. You should know better! I'm sure you wouldn't want her to ask what's wrong with you." With that being said the younger one looked down at the table and mumbled "I'm sorry..." The question was still out there though and the flashback started as my eyes filled with tears and the memories of my life started all over again.

Tyler and the older boy jump up in shock and are at my side in a second trying to get me to calm down without touching me. Once they realized they weren't helping, Tyler gave up and grabbed me pulling me into his chest holding me there even as I screaming protest. He didn't let go of me. Tyler held me to his chest and ran a hand across the back of my head whispering that everything was okay that he won't hurt me that I'm safe. After five minutes I finally calmed down and clung tightly to him as I cried into his shirt.

For once in my life I wasn't afraid of being in someone's arms. I felt comfortable, safe and warm.  I didn't want to let go, and he didn't make me. Tyler just stood there letting me cry while he rubbed my back. The nurses came rushing over, but stopped mid stride seeing me crying in his arms hugging him tightly. I couldn't see their faces, but I could imagine they were filled with shock and worry.

" How did you manage to get her to calm down and on top of it all to get her to let you touch her?" one of the nurses asked Tyler as they walked towards us. "I tried calming her down without touching her, but it wasn't working so I gave up and grabbed her and kept a hold of her even when she protested. Soon enough she quit fighting and just held me back and started crying." he said still rubbing my back.

I could feel the nurse's hand on my shoulder and I stiffened and jumped moving away from Tyler to get far away from them all. Tyler looked shocked by my sudden movement and the other two boys were looking at me sadly with understanding strewn across their faces. The nurse moved forward to grab me again, but again I moved away and shook my head no. I bolted from the room in tears to go to my hiding space where no one knows where to find me.