Regret Rejecting Me Alpha

not good enough

davina's wolf on the side.( skylar) .

there will be many pov.s so dont get confused.

its been 2 days since i've been hiding in the blue moon teritorry. it hurts so much . i've been crying the whole time. everything is still the same in the pack house. nothing changed. guess the rouges didnt enter the pack house. it had alot of dust, but i just miss this place. i walled to my room. i hesitated before opening the door. but i finally did. i started touching everything, and the memories hitting me like a ton of bricks. the moon goddess must have really hate me for doing all this to me. i hate my life. i found my guitar sitting in the corner of my room. i picked it up and started singing one of my favorite songs. i never knew how much it has emotions until now.

I am the diamond you left in the dust
I am the future you lost in the past
Seems like I never compared
Wouldn't notice if I disappeared

You stole the love that I saved for myself
And I watched you give it to somebody else
But these scars no longer I hide
I found the light you shut inside
Couldn't love me if you tried

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

Does it burn
Knowing I used all the pain?
Does it hurt
Knowing you're fuel to my flame?
Don't look back
Don't need your regrets
Thank God you left my love behind
Couldn't change me if you tried

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

Release your curse
'Cause I know my worth
Those wounds you made are gone
You ain't seen nothing yet
Your love wore thin
And I never win
You want the best
So sorry that's clearly not me
This is all I can be

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

i wasnt good enough. i never was. i will never be.

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adam's pov.

its been 2 days since she ran away. its all my fault but i swear i didnt kiss her. she threw herself at me and smashed her lips to mine. i tried pushing her away but she held into me so strong. then davina came and everything happened. i am a jerk. i should have shoved her away from me. i lost davina. i've been searching non stop but she is nowhere to be found. she hadn't broke the pack connection so she's not a rouge. i haven't ate, slept nor showered. my wolf is going crazy. i need her. i need davina.

dylan , lucy and victoria bursted the door opened and entered the office like they owned the place.

"why the heck.?" i said annoyed.

"shut up and sit down. we dont care that you're an alpha. what i care about is my best friend is out there in the danger all alone. now get your ass up and lets go. i think i know where she is." lucy said through gritted teeth.

"really !? where is she!??!" i asked getting up quickly.

"not so fast take a shower you stink." victoria said. i ran to the bathroom and took the shortest shower i have ever had. i put on sweat pants and a shirt and ran downstairs to see them waiting for me.