When I hurt my knee at the age of 10, my father kissed it better
When I scraped my hand at age 11
I got a band aid
But when I became depressed
I had to get over it
We are taught from the age of one
That pain is temporary, that a kiss from mum can mend everything
That a broken thumb will heal in time
That depression is only in the mind
A figment of the over imaginative
Of those who are too creative
Why with all this energy inside do my limbs refuse to move
Why with all this love I receive
Do I grant myself no reprieve
It's not as if I'm lame or dumb so why do I feel so numb
Depression does not permit the depressed the luxury of hope
Though the light may shine upon the darkness, the darkness shall comprehend it not
When darkness is all you've got
You can't imagine having more
Than the anguish and desolation
You feel with every movement
Every waking hour spent in pain
Knowing no gain can come of it
Never knowing why or how this cloud chose you
Always knowing that this constant drizzle of black rain will last a life time
When this atmosphere brings nothing but despair and all your fears are left bare
You'd rather it pour, and bucket down for just one day
So that the next can be spent in a cloudless way
I know freedom lingers near
Ready to burst like a dam stored for years
Compressed back by hidden fears that I know not
Fears that leave me crippled in the corner without ever seeing them
So why do I my self condemn
Why do I judge myself
It's not enough for everyone else to think I'm faking
So I begin to believe it myself
I must be being selfish
I have a job
A family
So what is really wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
It can't be me
You can't explain the frustration that comes knowing you have no one to blame
No one caused this.
No scape goat to pin the blame on
No one
So you blame everyone
Lash out at those trying to reach you
To those trying teach you
That you can heal
That one day you can feel something else
Than helpless
That one day you can be something other than a mess
Something other than depressed....
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Something than depressed
PoesíaWhile we all feel sad, moody or low from time to time, some people experience these feelings intensely, for long periods of time (weeks, months or even years) and sometimes without any apparent reason. Depression is more than just a low mood – it's...
