Congratulations You Won.

chapter 2

Harry’s POV

4th April 2012

It’s been 6 days since He left I haven’t been able to even get up from bed the boys have yet to check up on me. There probably too busy with their own love lives. Liam and Danielle Zayn and Perrie Niall and Alice, I mentally scoff now Louis can fit right in. I turn over and stare at the ceiling I never noticed how plain it is in here everything is white. All around just so plain and blegh. A loud ring interrupted the silence, the only sound I have heard besides my constant sobbing. I groan and grab my phone. The caller screen read I EDDIE I hesitantly pressed answer. “Hello lad” Ed’s voice rang through the phone “you busy?” “Uh no I’m not at the moment” I croaked, “Gosh you sound like crap mate you ok?” I sniffled “just some love problems” “hey ill come round soon yeah and we’ll talk about it kay?” and with that he hung up. Good old Ed worrying about nothing.

I’m nothing.

I’m worthless.

I sighed ripping the covers off my body making me shiver. I walked to my bathroom deciding on having a shower. I turned the hot water on waiting for it to heat up stripping I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. The image I saw didn’t surprise me at all, my hair was worse than usual looking like a birds nest, the tear tracks seemed permanent my eyes bloodshot and puffy. And my ribs looking skinner that usual. Probably because I haven’t eaten in days not noticing how hungry I really am.  I jumped in the shower hissing as the now too hot water hit my back, making my skin burn a little. Washing my hair and body I began to think about all the harsh words He has called over the past few months, as I was about to turn the water off I noticed my razor sitting next to the shampoo. Picking it up I glanced at my wrist to see the many cuts I have already made, the ones I made when I was all alone, sad, upset, angry, and sometimes just plain bored. You see when I cut I get a sense of control I feel like I don’t have to face the outside world, just for a few minutes I have no worry or self-pity it’s just me and my razor, I dare even say it no Louis, no fans, media, no Eleanor nobody just me. Without much thought, I pressed the blade to my skin, wincing just a little at the sting. I ran the blade over my wrist thinking about all the hurt I have inside and letting it out.

Worthless

Slice

Useless

Cut

Faggot

Another cut

Ugly

More cuts.

I sighed five is enough. For today. I ran my cuts under the scalding hot water feeling hardly any pain. Im getting to use to this. Turning the water off and grabbing a towel to dry my body I walked back into my room toward my closet pulling some boxers and skinny jeans on and a plain white top. I shuffle over to my dresser and snatched up my bracelets, the ones I use to cover up the cuts. I put them on grabbed my phone of charge and walked down the stairs. The kitchen was spotless when I walked in reminding me once again that Louis was gone. I got a glass and went to the fridge for some breakfast juice, when I opened the fried there was nothing in there it was empty. Slowly closing the fridge door I walked to the living room and plopped down on the couch whipping out my phone for something to while waiting for Ed to arrive. I log on to my private twitter account I made on without management knowing. I have about 100 followers and one that I talk to constantly. Her name is Leah she lives in London just more near the country part. She is pretty and if I was not in love with Him I would probably go for her. A I clicked on my DMs I saw one from Leah that read

@its_LeahRose

Hey Haz im in the city we should hang. Call me x

I smiled and replied with a sure. I skimmed past my contacts to Leah’s and told her to meet me at my apartment in 10 minutes. When I was about to turn the TV on the doorbell rang that must be Ed I thought he took some time. I answered the door and led him to the couch. “Harry Styles why were you crying?” wow straight to the point “u-um” my voice started to waver “Louis he, he ended it Ed. Said I was worthless and didn’t want to be like me” I sobbed a few tears escaping my eyes. I squeezed them shut to stop more coming. He sighed “oh Haz come ‘ere” he extended his arms I fell into them letting all the tears fall. After a while, I explained to him everything that has happened since October last year when we first met Eleanor and how Louis and the boys drifted away. “So Harry what do you want to do to get your mind off this situation?”  I went back to my thoughts of this morning. I suddenly got an idea. As I opened my mouth the doorbell rang for the second time today, Ed looked at me confused “A friend, I think you’ll like her” he nodded opening the door with a wide grin “Leah!” I shouted. 

A/N 

 Leah and Harry have met  before this and the actor for Leah is Leah Divon  

and i will make it more exciting once i get into the plot more x 

Abbie