August 19,2015
Its my birthday. Yep. Im depressed in my birthday. But I hid it.
4 oclock in the morning, I woke up. I dont know.
But I slept again.
I woke up again 6 oclock in the morning. My mom sang me the Happy Birthday song. The usual.
She's doing it every day of our birthday.
Yes. Im depressed.
Depression is my enemy right now. Because. I wanna die already.
7:30 am Im already in Sta. Lucia, Rizal.
Im walking alone in a closed mall.
While Im walking, Im thinking about the thoughts that hurt my heart. And gave scars.
After I stroll just to find a rubber shoes, I went back to the bridge. And there's my mom sitting with a police. Yeah my mom is so talkative.
She can find a way that she could be comfortable.
So I walked near to her.
She gave me money. And said that I should eat.
So I walked again. Alone again.
I entered Jollibee and ate.
I just ordered a hamburger. Coz I need to reduce the money. But I dont have the appetite to eat.
And then we had a street worship there.
and then after that, my mom and I walked towards the mall. Just to find some shoes.
She bought me a Hush Puppies doll shoes.
We got home for about 12 noon.
Yeah. my life is boring.
I talked to Nikko just to be happy. Yeah. I think I found a new guy bestfriend in another section.
And that day, I was a bit happy. and its because of him.
