Honeymoon Avenue

My Everything

I could feel my head dizzy already going round and round while the stereo in the club blasts the music out loud. After two more shots, I placed the cup on the bar and made my way through the crowd towards my friends and boy was I high. Swinging my hair as I jump around and dancing to the music, I released my last remains of energy that I had and went all out. I guess that was the only way for me to release everything inside of me that i've been bottling up these past few months.

I could say that them few months that passed was not the best of my years living in this world. Dreadful would probably be the perfect word to describe it.

I came out the club with my friends, laughing and giggling, my head in the clouds, got no weight on my shoulder. (A/N: HAHAHAHAH) I called my driver over and got into the car. That was the first in many months that i've felt so free. But as soon as I reached home, it was like a pang of reality.

Though I was drunk, I was still stable. Just not thinking so right. I stepped out the car only to find another car by my house as if its waiting for someone. I looked in from where I was standing and saw a man inside. I wonder who that is..

Not caring about it too much, I walked in my house and bang! The door of the master bed room slammed open, and all I saw was my mother carrying a luggage bag furiously, walking down the stairs. She looked down at me as she stopped in her tracks, breathing hard, her cheeks mad red with tears streaming down her face. I couldn't exactly process in my mind what I was seeing. It was like a nuclear fission happening in my head except worse.

She pushed past me, causing me to trip a little, my hands holding on to the table closest to me. I blinked a few times to try and process what was going on, not caring about my father who's currently as mad as a bull could get. I could hear the glass breaking, the chairs banging, and his screams just accompanying all the negative sounds that caused my mind to turn into panic mode. The answer was still not getting to me and so I turned around to chase after my mother, stopping halfway after seeing her about to get in the mysterious car I saw earlier.

"MOM WHERE ARE YOU GOING?!"

"FAR AWAY FROM YOUR DAMNED MESSED UP FATHER. I SHOULD'VE LEFT LONG AGO!"

Her merciless screaming got to me and it made my heart hurt so bad. I watched as the car drove off as I fell down to my knees.

Why is this happening to me..?
How could she say that to me..
How could she tell me that she should've left earlier..?

My mind was still a puzzle that I could not piece up. I got back on my feet and went to my father's room carefully to check on him. All I could see was glass shattered all around the floor, pieces of wood just scattered around.

"Dad..?" I called out weakly, my mind still dizzy from the drinking and the scene I witnessed.

I could hear his sobbing from the bathroom and I followed his voice. I came in only to find him standing by the sink, his head lowered down. I couldn't bare myself to see him feeling so out of his mind. It was bizarre.

"Dad..?" I called out again. No answer from him. I was debating on whether I should give him space or whether I should comfort him.

Finally, he broke the silence and turned around. His face was furious red with tears streaming down his cheeks. I couldn't help but to break down in front of him. For as long as i've been living, this was the first time he's ever broke down so hard in front of me. I quickly wrapped my arms around him, sobbing softly against his chest with my eyes shut like a child that needed comfort after facing her fears. He returned a hug weakly and stroked my hair saying, "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I failed you.. I'm sorry I failed your mom.. I'm sorry.."

Those were the only words that he repeated and it made me feel worse cause I couldn't say anything as my tears strained me from saying anything. We both lost the woman who was once in our lives, and not to mention, my grandfather that passed away a month ago. At this moment, we could only depend on each other until my brother gets home from France.

A/N : Hope you guys love this! 😁