•Memos of my life•

Fuck Ups and Family

Do ever have that one sibling or family member that fucks up so much,that you just hate their fucking guts?Well if you don't then you are just BY FAR the most luckiest person alive.Unfortunately I am not blessed with this,because I have my brother Shawn(it's not really spelled this way for protection reasons).He fucks up way too much,and you know what the worst part is it's his own fault.It's his fault that he is in a fucking Christian boarding school in Indiana,with kids that are even worse of a fuck up than he is.On top of that he's in there because he refuses to act how he's supposed to.He smokes weed,has an attitude with my parents,always looking for a fight with me or my sister,he said he hates this family,he got left back in school because he didn't want to take the ELA state test,he tried to fight my dad,One time when my sister was home he snuck a girl over to the house,every day their was always an argument between him and my parents and I have to sit there and watch them scream and my sister cry.I remember this one time when me and my brother were left alone we got into a argument and he punched me he hit me and hit me and hit me until I broke out of his grasp and I grabbed a knife from the kitchen and called the police.Oh and it's not like my parents didn't try to help him either they have done countless things for him to get him to listen to them,My parents bought him anything he wanted even hen he didn't deserve it,they poured out heavy amounts of money for therapy,when he was jumped by 4 kids my parents paid those hospital bills,all the things they did for him all the love they showed for him and he repays them with stupidity,selfish acts,and fighting then One day he really fucked up.I came home from school one day and the house living room was just fucking destroyed. Broken furniture was everywhere chairs and tables flipped over,and there was my dad in the middle of the living room cleaning up his mess with a broom and a dustpan.I ask what happened and he said "Shawn was angry at me and your mother"."Go on"he said "look around".Every single room was destroyed almost like it was just flipped over.I talked to my dad to later figure out the my mother took Shawn to a hospital,they asked him questions they got no answers.Later on in life I was told Shawn is going to a boarding school.Which brings me to present day to when my parents got a phone call from him(Shawn).Explaining how he yet again fucked up in boarding school and yet my parents want me to say hi to him yea no way I hate him he failed my father,he failed my sister,he failed my mother,and if he keeps this up eventually he'll fail our family name.But most of all he F
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Shawn you are dead to me