Trouble, Treble, and Track

Looking ok

I'm going over Monday night, I told my parents we had a project but really gage told me to come over so I have to look good. I haven't changed but same me. I'm still fat, just with curves. I still am a dedicated Ana and Mia, they slowly kill me but i love it . They been with me since day one. I only do what gage says cause that's the only way he sees my beauty... plus what good is a woman that can't please her man. Anyway, In pants I don't wear leggings, shorts have to be more than 4 inches above the knee, and skinny jeans. I know they look bad. As motivation i keep a pic of myself in a bra and panties. It shows all the fat. Every thing I wear I wanna look perfect in, but that never happens. Ana said I look bad in those clothes. Shirts I don't wear anything at shows my stomach, or shoulders. My shirts are loose fitting never tight. I'm not good enough for tight shirts. No one wants a busted can of biscuits, that's just gross. When I get hungry I pinch my stomach and keep going. I'll be105 pounds in ayear.
since dads always gone and moms always getting fired for drinking were kinda broke. Mom started drinking when they started faking their marriage. That only happened after the ghost . That's when dad started having a side and trophy family with his secretary. I hear my mother walk into the house it's about 6pm so she just came from happly. I step on my baby brothers rattle and mumble thanks allot Benny. It goes quiet. I don't think she heard it so I keep walking. Half way to the door I hear her voice. "Your a slut gOing to his house like that. Your such aFuck up but you won't be my issue for long. I hope you know your the reason he's dead." I ran outside. I had to get away. I grabbed a smoke. A smoke a day keeps hunger away. I'm just mad. He'll make it better. I was hot sweaty and gross... So much for looking good. But that means i must've burned calories. I got there and told him to wait on that hug.