Chasing Dream

Love

After moving to my school thats ITL, I only focus on my academics and football. 

Due to my previous bad expriences I afraid to open up with people. Just school to home, home to academy, academy to school only. I only feel happiness at my football academy. There were many friends but I didn't open up fully.

After some times there comes a girl in my class. She is ordinary, simple, short height, cute in looking. I dont know what happen to me like I always wanted to see her front of my eyes . I never talked to her but one day she came to me and asked for my help. She wanted my notebook for work as ma'am told to her. She take my number as if any problem happen she would ask me about it.

She called me up at night i thought she call for help but she just want to talk to me. We talk till late night. From that time we talk mostly every night. Now I'm in love with her. I know its ridiculous just a teenage stuff. One day I tell her about my feelings on phone, she remain silent and disconnect the call. I feel so bad about it, I shouldn't have to say this.

Next day I sit calmly on my bench and waiting for so that I  apologise to her but she didn't came to school that day. Whole day I called her but she didn't recieve the call. I feel so guilty about it. 

After 3-4 days when I just talking to my friends, she came running towards to me and hug me. I was so frozen that time, we leave the class that time. She told me that they had gone to  his aunt home because of that she can't talk to me. She told me that she likes me too. She was my first gf.

But its not easy to handle this situation due to my football session. I didn't give her proper time. My coach recommend me to Hindustan Football Club and i selected in that. I was so happy because its India 'A' division club. Because of not giving time to her, she give me option to choose between her and the game.

I didn't think twice about it and leave her. If she was understandable she wouldn't give me that option. Its the end of my first love.