i am halfway there. my feet are already tired of walking. walking of how many miles that i already lost count. my notes are my diaries and my shoes are my only companion in this walks. i listen for every possible heartbeats, yet no one's there. or must i say i am definitely ALONE. the door open wide. i didn't ntice any door a while ago. maybe i am just busy with this walk that i am not watching to where i am heading to. white lights blinded my gaze for a moment and a man appeared before me.
"Ron..ang tagal mo ha..kanina pa ako naghihintay dito" he said with a faint smile on his face. i enter that door and found a beautiful garden. we sitted on the grass under a shade of the tree.
"sorry ha..nalate ako" i faintly smile too. for a long moment i stare at him. never knowing that i already took a half of the day just staring at. in the end i end up hugging him.
"i hate you. you know!...you left us all alone never knowing anything like this might happen...why you?" i mockingly ask him. i brush the tears in my face. he smiled at me.
"i grew tired of living..in here i have no failures..in here i can have everything..in here i can see you all without me jumping from one place to another. and in here everyone accepts me for who i am." he said.
for a long moment i realized...maybe he's right. having a life is so boring yet so challenging.
"when are you going back?" i ask him.
"you know the answer Ron, i can't go back eventhough how much i want to..i can't." he said in a low voice.
"the day of your accident don't you know how many tears we shed hoping that it's not real. in the hospital, when you are at your coma state, don't you know how many prayers we utter just for you to wake up!..you are mean, you left us without saying a word.!" i said accusing ly.
"that was never planned. i diidn't want to leave too. i have a lot of dreams and ambitions" he said still in low voice.
"we miss you Dons, because you are the only Donster in our lives. we, your friends will forever cherish your memories during those that you are still with us. BHRM 4-B will forever be your family" i said as i hug him again.
i know it is time for me to leave, there is no sign but i just feel it. before i left he is already like a thin fog. slowly fading. "i love you Dons. We love you" i whisper before he completely disappear.
a door then opens. i hear noises, screams and even cries. i walk to that door. saw myself lying on a white bed in a white dress, full of blood. my mom is on the corner with my brother, my friends are outside peeking in. fear are all in there faces. the nurses are coming in and out. the doctor is saying something i don't understand. i just stand there, staring at myself. i felt someone hug me and whisper, "go now dear, they all need you" and with a slight push i am now back in myself. i open my eyes and see there smiles. i know this isn't my time yet but i am thankful that because of this i have a chance to talk to him eventhough i haven't seen him for almost a year.
he is my friend.
he will always be remebered.
he will always kept here in our hearts.
cause i love him.
one of my forever friends.
i miss you Toto Donster.
be happy wherever you are right now.
