The Past

Chapter 4

Xianne POV

***4th year High School***

"Mac look." I whisper on Steve pointing him under the table. Rona and Manuel are holding each other's hand under the table. Mac was what I use to call him because I find it cute calling him like that. I was stunned when Steve hold my hand too and keep on smiling without looking at me. I took my hands away aware that Neil, his best friend and Kath, my best friend might notice us. Neil is courting me and Kath has a secret crush on Steve. He look at me and secretly whispered in my ear.

"Hailahabyuu"

"What?", I asked confused. I didn't understand what he said or rather pretend not to hear that but actually, I wasn't sure if I heard it right.

"Nothing. Forget about that", he said. "Can you please massage my hand? It hurts."

I hesitate at first but something pops on my mind. "Promise me you'll pay me."

"Oh.." he put his hand under his jaw and pretend that his thinking about what I've said. "Okay"

He moved his sit an inch near me but Kath pull it beside her. He look at Kath and pull his seat back to me but then again Kath repeat her actions.

"Stop it. It's annoying", he said in low yet firm voice. He pull back his seat and face me again putting his left hand on my palms. I felt the butterflies in my stomach but suddenly my eyes flew on Kath's face. She look so sad, she stood up and went outside the classroom. I felt guilty for what she's feeling right now. I stood up and follow her.

"Hey", I said when I sat down beside her. She look up but didn't answer. I just sit there, waiting for her reply until the bell rang, she never utter a word.

When our class is over, I stay out of my classmates knowing that Kath doesn't want to see me. I was sitting on the front table of our classroom when Steve went on my side.

"Why you look sad?"

I just walked away from him. "Shut up ass****! You're so numb that you can't feel that someone likes you and get jealous when somebody's around you especially when it's her bestfriend", I want to shout that in his face but I restrained myself not to make a big scene and reveal my bestfriend's secret. He suddenly grab my arm and try to lighten my mood.

"You know what, you're so cute." He pinch my cheeks.

I tried to escape from his grip but he hold both of my shoulders and turn me around. His back is facing the door of the classroom and I'm facing him trying to hide my blushed cheeks.

"Let go of me! You're annoying! I'm not in the mood to play with you." I met his gaze and there I saw something in his eyes, sadness, confusion, I don't know. He suddenly lowered his face and the door loudly open. Kath and the rest of the girls are on the door. They are laughing out loud except Jilian who's looking at me with wide eyes.

"Steve kissed Xianne."

She mouthed at me. The girls look at her but seems like they didn't heard what Jilian said.

I run away from the classroom and I cried knowing that when Kath discover what just about to happened before they enter, she will surely hate me more.

The afternoon bell rang, it simply means that the last period is over.

"Come on guys! Let's go to the town plaza. I miss eating street foods." Aina said while dragging me and Kath to stand.

Aina is sitting on the grass while facing me. I am sitting on the umbrella house and Kath sat down on the fence.

"I saw how you look at Steve, tell me do you like him Kath?"

"N-no, of course not!" Kath said.

I look at Aina who's not convinced by her answer. That's what I like about Aina, she's staight forward when it comes to her friends.

"Yes you do, you're just denying the fact that it is more than like."

With that statement, Aina stood up and the three of us left the town plaza. That was the time that I realized, she really like Steve more, that it hurts her now.

I pull out from my reverie when someone hit my temple. I put my hand on my head and turn.

"Are you with us? We've been talking and talking here but seems like you're elsewhere. What are you thinking?", Yu's unstoppable mouth filled my ears.

"I'm sure, it's all about that unrequited love on your high school life." Rain said.

"I'm just thinking, if it wasn't about between my bestfriend and his bestfriend, do you think did we end up together?" I showed my sad smile. They already know the story, in 2nd year of our college life, I can say that there's no more secrets between us.

"C'mon. Let me ask you, did you regret your decision?" Rain said while waiting for my reaction.

"Well, I did not. I keep my bestfriend and look what we are now. We're both happy."

"Xi, just let go of the past. Move forward, it's already over."

"Yu is right. I think you just need some entertainment. Why don't you give your self a chance to meet new people. New love without complications?" Sometimes Rain talk rarely but the words she says will fit to an informative essay.

"Rain, you know I'm not ready for love right now. I am contented having you guys, I don't have to look for friends anymore."

"I know, but looking you like that makes us sad also. A line of suitors are waiting for your attention. You just have to open your eyes Xianne, it's not about Steve anymore."

My mind tell me that Rain is right, but my heart don't want to let go. I thought about it at night, why do I keep on thinking about someone who's not even bother by who I am? Why can't I get him out of my mind knowing that even once he never remembered me? Why do I settle in sadness when I know there is room for happiness? It's been 2 years, there was never an "us" but why does it take too much time in leaving memories behind? I never cried because of him but I rarely become happy.

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